why does creative energy only exist at 1:42am on a work night.
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why does creative energy only exist at 1:42am on a work night.
whatever. go my fanfic.
I don't suppose any of my fellow ancient Tumblrites has a spare legacy AO3 invite kicking around to donate to an idiot who had to nuke his account years ago for doxing reasons but now wants to share something extremely stupid with a niche fandom 🥺👉👈?
i'm the World's Slowest Writer so i've been trying to motivate myself with the dangling carrot of commissioning art when I finish writing this thing
but i'm sooooo sloooooow so it's so far awaaaaaay and it's not super working as motivation, so I want to commission the art now
but if I do that then I won't have a theoretical reward to work towards so I know I'll slow down even more without even that thinnest thread of motivation
delayed gratification is the worst and I should be able to have both the thing I want now and the long term motivation. it's rude that this is impossible.
I've been trying out Plottr and I really like it, the featureset jives really well with how I outline and what information I want around in that process and how I want to manipulate it.
You'd think that would be enough for me to recommend it, but for some reason it's followed suit with the enshittification of the internet and the primary way to access it is a subscription service. It's a fuckin' piece of software that you download to your computer and has files stored locally. It is feature complete and a full release so there is no real excuse for a subscription-oriented model except the company realising that a drip feed from your wallet is more profitable than selling you a piece of software that does not need any upgrades. The website attempts to justify this by saying 'lifetime updates' are included but it is currently fully functioning as is so I question the value proposition of paying in perpetuity to use a program on my computer to access and interact with files stored on my computer.
(There is an online version as well. I understand subscription models in this case as this is an area where continued development and maintenance are required, as well as server costs for your files etc.)
But, you say! There is a lifetime license! Problem solved!
It is two hundred fucking united states dollars.
I am in a good financial position these days. I can spend money on stupid shit I want. But I cannot get past the audacity of charging $200 for what should be the default fucking option for owning software.
There's nothing that quite does what Plottr does, at least that I've found. But for some comparison:
Scrivener is $59.99 once-off and is probably the best writing-oriented program out there
Aeon Timeline is $65 once-off including a year of free updates
Campfire Blaze honestly has a payment structure I am sideeyeing but at least you can get a lifetime license tailored to what you need out of the program and characters + timeline is still cheaper than Plottr
Wavemaker is donationware
Metos is a subscription model, but has Web-only considerations mentioned above, specific plans for features in development, and is $24 annually rather than $150
The entire Microsoft Office suite is $149.99. Between Word, Excel, and OneNote you could definitely figure something out from a writing perspective and also have all the functionality of a full suite of office software FOR LESS MONEY THAN PLOTTR.
There are of course a wide array of free softwares (Google docs/sheets, Libre Office, etc) but I specifically wanted to call out paid options here to demonstrate how ridiculous their pricing structure is
I dunno man. People are allowed to charge whatever they want for the things that they make, but this is just so blatantly out of step with the market that I can only assume the lifetime license price is specifically aimed at deterring lifetime purchases and extracting the maximum amount of money possible from their target market through subscriptions instead. I feel a particular kind of way about that target market being writers, a group notoriously not known for their financial stability.
Fuck subscription services with no ongoing value proposition taking over how we access software and fuck every company that makes the revenue-driven decision to engage in this tactic. Even if your motivations are honourable (we have people to pay! you want us to be able to pay our hard-working employees, right?) you are pursuing those goals through nothing less than the exploitation of your customers for maximum financial gain.
I finished(ish) outlining my project* last night and foolishly mentioned this to my dad when he asked what I'd been up to, which of course doomed me to him asking what it was about
I then had to explain litrpg and progression fantasy to my dad to then be able to say 'so I'm discarding all of the appeal of seeing a character get stronger because I wanted to explore the idea of someone starting out with the overwhelming power but just being an absolute mess as a human being.'
and my father. my loving father**. could not hold himself back from saying 'bit autobiographical then?'
* no idea how long it's going to be so I'm still refusing to call it a novel ** I think the last time I mentioned my father was uh. not good. we're mostly reconciled. it's complicated.
how the fuck do the historical writers do it. nothing but awe for the people who can be historically accurate and tell a compelling story. I have spent the past two days going in circles on Wikipedia and reading adjacent resources and the history of Europe has taken me out. I can't cope with this and anyone who can is stronger than god. one day I will post this short story and someone with a special interest in 9th century Europe will leave a comment saying my depiction of dyes available in the Frankish Empire is inaccurate and they'll link to a fragment of a contemporary document as a source and I'll just have to be like: yeag... sorry 👍
it's been a bit of a shit week. I missed a couple days of writing for the first time in about three weeks out of sheer tiredness, which means I'm adjusting my goals to an average of 1500 words/day this month rather than just 1500 words/day, and I'll be playing catch-up for a while.
learning to drive also continues, but I had a rough lesson in a new neighbourhood today, along with some highway driving which I haven't done much of. I'm chalking my regressive shittiness up to those nerves, but it's something I need to overcome because I'm going to be driving on my own in new places eventually and I need to not be a menace on the roads. unfortunately my instructor is going to be away for all of July, so I have yet more regression after not driving to look forward to in August. I was hoping I'd get this driving thing done and dusted by my birthday, but oh well. I've got time.
overall this week has just made me glad that I'm old. it used to be that a shit week was 'ah, the suicidal ideation has come back' or 'ah, A Crisis has occurred', but now I have much more of a spectrum for general crummyness, which I am thankful for. I've worked hard to build up a life that can absorb some general crummyness and: it's working! things will be back to normal in no time, and I can get there through my own efforts.