#guilt.

[jaxapologist]

need I mention the eyes are following him

[lil-intr0-vert]

stole @newkiller-pixie idea of collar under band merch and I did feel very cutie while dancing at the metalcore show =)

[trinket-thetranslucent-pippins]

Pips will never be able to enjoy a 3D movie again because of you.

-guilt

..Oh..

[stoicmike]

There’s no need to blame yourself for things that aren’t your fault -- when the things that are will suffice. -- Michael Lipsey

[unrealunknown]

I know it's hard, but try to give yourself some grace and not be so hard on yourself. Life is really hard and none of us are perfect. You're not worthless or a lost cause for making mistakes and you don't deserve to be hurt for being human.

Please I'm begging you protect yourself please do not engage with what I say here it's all poison it's poison I'm poisoning you with this disgusting behavior please do not waste your compassion on me please don't waste your compassion on someone who won't listen.

[unrealunknown]

ITS MY FUCKING FAULT ITS MY FUCKING FAULT ITS MY FAULT FOR NOT MOVING ON ITS MY FAULT ITS MY FAULT ITS MY FAULT ITS MY FAULT IM LOSING MY LIFE IM LOSING THINGS EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY IM LOSING MY LIFE BECAUSE IM CHOOSING THIS IM FUCKING CHOOSING THIS INSTEAD OF MOVING FORWARD IM CHOOSING THIS AND LOSING EVERYTHING IM LOSING EVERYTHING IM LOSING EVERYTHING IM LOSING EVERYTHING WAITING FOR SOMEONE FUCKING ELSE TO FIX IT FOR SOMEONE FUCKING ELSE TO DO IT IM A LAZY FUCKING PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT WASTE OF FUCKING FLESH IM NOT EVEN FUCKING HUMAN IM NOT EVEN FUCKING HUMAN IM A FUCKING WASTE OF BREATHING CORPSE IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING

[unrealunknown]

I COULD HAVE HAD A THIRTIETH BIRTHDAY WITH FRIENDS I COULD HAVE HAD A BIRTHDAY PARTY I COULD HAVE A FRIEND GROUP I COULD HAVE POSSIBLY GONE ON A DATE BY NOW I COULD HAVE MY DOG HERE IF I WAS EATING RIGHT AND EXERCISING RIGHT I COULD HAVE FINISHED MY PROJECTS I COULD HAVE DRAWN A THOUSAND PICTURES I COULD HAVE WRITTEN A STORY I COULD HAVE LOST WEIGHT I COULD HAVE MY DOG HERE I COULD HAVE CLOTHES I ACTUALLY LIKE I COULD HAVE A MILLION FUCKING THINGS IF I WASNT SO FUCKING STUCK IN THE PAST I COULD HAVE FRIENDS I COULD HAVE SO FUCKING MUCH

BUT INSTEAD IM FUCKING SITTING HERE GORGING MYSELF GAINING WEIGHT SO I CAN BARELY FUCKING MOVE ISOLATING BECAUSE I FEEL SO FUCKING SICK FROM ALL THE FUCKING CRYING AND MELTING DOWN AND EVERY POISONOUS WORD I SAY IM TAKING OTHERS DOWN WITH ME IM PUTTING DOWN OTHER PEOPLE STRUGGLING EVERY FUCKING TIME I USE THIS ABHORRENT LANGUAGE IM HURTING OTHERS IM DIMINISHING OTHERS IM DISGUSTING IM A NAZI IM A FUCKING ABUSER IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING!!!!!!