#guiltriddenshinigami

[sorrowscars]

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back to friends, you and me just the way it was back to friends, we agree it’s better as it was

back to friends, no pain to mend it’s much simpler as friends

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≡ ∞ Ω (since you usually send the asks, I thought I'd return the favour XD)

>>Initiate Mun Monday

≡ - Most recent game played.

Left 4 Dead 2. I played it the other day with two of my irl friends over skype and it was probably the shortest match we’ve ever had. It only took like half an hour to complete I think?? Sadly, I was killed at the end and I have no clue what the hell happened. I was just suddenly on the floor and I died. I think I might have gotten crushed by the rescue truck we were lowering. The irony dsfjks

∞ - How did you get into Tumblr?

Oh man, I think it was because one of my friends was on it. I decided to check it out and make an account. It took me a while to get used to the absolute fuckery of tumblr’s layout but now here I am. Almost four years later and still trapped on this hellsite.

Ω - Got any Tumblr “Senpai’s” and if so who?

YOU OFC <3 I guess I have a few “senpais” on here lol @kessaichi, @sorrowscars, @thetxmeleaper, @yourdigitalbae, @spectralmelon, and @rxngikumxtsumoto

I consider pretty much all of my friends who are older than me to be my senpai and I love you guys omg

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guiltriddenshinigami replied to your post:;;

omg… I must be really tired becuase I swear…..I just laughed so hard and now my dad is wondering what is going on.

*WAGGLES EYEBROWS* 

no but legit like

tied up with shadows, pinned to the bed-- 

i regret nothing. 

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   “a c r u s h , huh?” 

   There is a pause, a stutter in his speak, where Tsuzuki    just b r e a t h e s;  violet eyes slip closed with serene    expression, falling into his own head for a minute--

  “Describe them.  Okay...he...he’s like darkness, like shadow,   elusive and yet ever present.  I can’t touch him, he’s so FAR    away but I know he’s beside me, right there....    He likes for people to think he’s cold, cold inside, cold outside,   like he’s COLD HEARTED.  But he’s really not;  he’s...he’s the   WARMEST person I know and I...    I wish we were closer.” 

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TATSUMI || guiltriddenshinigami

POSITIVE. A positive test result, that was the beginning of this mess. When the dizzy spells started, he got pretty accustomed to the whitewash walls and glaring florescents of the hospitals. For a while, they thought it was arrhythmia causing it, and that it would pass. They all thought it couldn't possibly be anything serious, he was too young, right? 16 at the time of diagnosis. No way it could be anything serious. Just a few short months before his birthday, in the monochrome folds of winter and the white blankets of snow on the ground. He went through all the stages; denial and grief, and came out the other side with another view. If he was going to die at 17, he was going to die on his own terms. (He wasted months of his time as it was, wallowing in misery and making his sister just as miserable, too. There wasn't a cure, and treatment was just prolonging the innevitable. HOPELESS;; but Tsuzuki played music every day, bade away the dark corners of his mind with MUSIC.)

Once, Tsuzuki believed he had all the time in the world. Perfect his music and rise to stardom, and then maybe, maybe he'd be worthy to share a stage with him. Be worthy to play for h i m. But now, all that time had condensed down to a matter of months. He had months to see that dream come to light. But Tatsumi Seiichiro hadn't played in y e a r s; When he asked Watari to introduce him to their mutual friend, the apprehension and curiosity had been pretty evident. Tsuzuki, with those vivid eyes and bold smile, wanting to meet Seiichiro? Seiichiro who lived in a world of MONOCHROME and who Watari could swear up and down never did anything for the sake of just d o i n g it?

It took a lot of convincing. But Watari agreed to ask Tatsumi to meet him in the park, that early spring day-- and he agreed to be late. Tsuzuki, though, Tsuzuki would be on time. And it would be a secret. Tatsumi wouldn't know he'd be there and then they'd finally MEET. Two paths crossing, like streaming stars over the vast sky, who could spend their endless existance alone, and yet by f a t e, by that unavoidable thing called DESTINY...meet.

Cherry blossom petals make their silent descent, dancing elegant with the wind to meet the ground; Tsuzuki is standing on top of the jungle gym, shoes discarded, violin case resting a few feet away-- there's a ring of children singing, humming and playing little mock instruments, with Tsuzuki in the middle them all, directing animatedly-- It's pretty typical of him, actually. He loves this park, he loves the kids, they're his band members today, but sometimes they're his flight crew. Sometimes they go on trips around the world, and some days they dive underwater. Tsuzuki wants to make sure that, in growing, they never forget the importance of imagination. Vivid eyes focus beyond the ring of excited children when Tatsumi comes nearer, and his shares a bright smile, hoping to impart some kind of message.

(AND THERE IS THAT WIND ;; that ethereal wind that gathers his hair and the edges of his clothes, his tie, his suit jacket lays discarded and his sleeves rolled up, but that petal burdened wind surrounds him in a flurry of sakura and sunlight.)

' See me. See me, can you see me? I want you to s e e me, Tatsumi...'

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guiltriddenshinigami replied to your post “;;”

there is no help OTL trust me........I'm in deep with AUs too

Omgggg...

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guiltriddenshinigami replied to your post:guiltriddenshinigami replied to your photoset ...

I’ll send you a video in a little bit. It helped me loads. And hey, don’t get about feeling behind XD I’m 24 and I’m not anywhere near where I want to be lol

oh my gosh, thank you so much! i’d really, really appreciate that. i need any and all help i can get lol. ahh thank you for the reassurance too, it seriously does help. your art is so amazing and cute, dude. you know how to use sai and color and everything dsfjk i hope i can draw as cute as you do some day ;v; and i wish us both luck eventually getting to the point where we want to be

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guiltriddenshinigami replied to your photoset “ayyy some recent doodles from this month so far. as you can probably...”

Hey look at that improvement :D!! You're getting better at drawing the faces!

Aw, thank you so much! It makes me so happy that you think I’m getting better at faces :’D It’s hard to feel that way sometimes and I’ve been self-taught this whole time so I feel really behind, but it means a lot that you can see improvement. Even if you don’t see it yourself, others do and that makes me happy <3