dating headcanons -> (karl koch)
->(not my gif)
warnings: mentions of drug abuse, slight angst?
a.n: first karl work, just thought id do something short of him. its been a while since i watched this film so i hope it still resonates 😔💔 i think the next full work will be robert frost i need to see my little meow meow. also sorry for slow updates i have a genetics module thats making me want to die rn 😔 i need to write for him i love him sm
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okay so to start out, an obvious point: you're not going to be getting much sleep (😉)
no but seriously - karl's going to be awake for days on end, and with how he's prone to obsessions, you can be sure that he'll be keeping you up with him; in all honesty it's probably better that you do stay up, if only to keep an eye on him
if you're not one to partake in his habits, you'll basically be surviving on caffeine
karl's the king of paranoia so he's definitely going to be a very jealous boyfriend
he's still in awe that he managed to end up dating you in the first place, and he's not going to let you go easily
i wouldn't so much say surveillance, but whenever you're away from him (which he tries to minimise in general) he'll want to know your whereabouts
you don't know how he does it, but he'll know everything about your day even without you telling him so, who you were with, where you went, what you talked about
you knew it all came from a place of love, and you'd been with him long enough to expect any different
your friends would warn you that he was the dangerous type, that one day he was going to get himself into something he wouldn't be able to get out of - but you just dismissed them
you thought he was eccentric, and to be fair, given what you heard about their partners, karl was one of the better
there'd never been any suggestion of cheating, he was so consumed by either his work or spending time with you, he didn't have time to be unfaithful even if he'd wanted to - which certainly wasn't the case
you're kind of a godsend to him: he'd probably be dead if you weren't there reminding him to eat, to shower, to eventually get some sleep
you do love watching him slowly succumb to your insistence, the way he starts yawning, how he'll rest his head on your shoulder when you sit next to him, the rhythm of his breathing changing as he falls asleep in front of the computer
the relationship isn't all one-sided though, of course
karl often worries he neglects you for his work, but you understand how important it is to him, and how he easily he gets inside his own head
i imagine him hours into trying to crack security codes, it's the middle of the night, and his eyes are starting to get bleary; you sidled up behind him and run your hand through his hair, and in that instant you feel all the tension drop from his muscles, him sighing into your touch
you're very good at convincing him to come to bed - he may put on airs of a protest, but a few undone buttons will have him abandoning whatever project he was working on
there would be moments of domestic bliss in between the drugs and the chaos, sweet moments waking up next to him, his face lined with sleep
definitely a very affectionate lover; karl would always be nuzzling against you, whether it be running his nose along your neck or resting his head against your chest
you were a refuge for him in the chaotic life he'd crafted for himself
whatever was going on with work, with the kgb, with the security breaks, he knew he'd always have you to come home to
there'll be a lot of emotional nights, especially when he's been taking too much coke
you'll worry about him taking it too far, but it hurts him more than anything to see you upset
he'll hold you close and promise he'll stop with the drugs - and for a while he will; until the next project comes in and he realises he needs more than twenty-four hours in a day
every time he goes back to the coke he feels incredibly guilty, doing it when you're not there, hoping you won't find out
you'll lie in bed with him and he'll just start crying, breaking down as you hold him close to your chest
it pains you more than anything to see him like this, stressed out of his mind with the weight of the world on his shoulders
but you stay together, through the thick and thin, and deep down you know there'll never be a man who loves you more than karl does - though he may have some unorthodox ways of showing it
