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. I can't find the right title to describe this happiness that I feel inside of me. Each time I wake up, I look at my cellphone and see her simple good morning text. An act she does that always keep me happy all throughout the day. The moment I hear her voice, or see her face or the smell of her hair makes my heart thump inside my chest so strong that it pulsates through every vein on my body. She keeps me alive, she helped me keep my faith in God. She knows me well, even for a short span of time that we were dating. I have once thought that I it was already love, yet it didn't end well. When I met her, the feelings were so different, so strong and fragile at the same time that it scares my emotions. I am scared to lose her, I am scared to hurt her, I am scared of how much I think about her every minute of my every day. It scares me how many times I've silently cried when she is not around. I am scared how easily she lift me up when I'm down. She makes it all seem easy and her efforts are effortless. She says things best when she doesn't even say a word at all.
. Her smile alone, the touch of her hand, the hugs from behind, the way she wipes my face when we are eating, the laughs we share lets me know how much I'm falling even more in love with her. Whenever it is getting dark, and it's time to walk her home, I feel so much yearning to see her again. It slows down the way I walk with her, it makes me sad not to make her stay, it makes me weak and I want to be with her a little bit longer. Even when she is not around, the way we call each other and pray together on the line amazes me how much faith she has on God. It made me realize how much we needed, not just emotion, but also trust for each other to make things work out. Even in moments where we fight, we never failed to say I love you in the end of our conversations. We are terrified lovers, we are terrified to lose each other. When I look around, no one else could be better than my girl. I love her with all my heart, mind, body and soul and I wish nothing else but her love. I never really had a chance, she caught me off guard from a simple hello. Since then, she owns me. I would never trade anyone for this kind of relationship, it's so hard to find a love like this nowadays in a world full of lies and deceit. I never found someone so pure and innocent as her. I love every part of her character, her good and bad. I want her to be the mother of my children and the only partner. I want to be with her until my hair turns white and my legs turn frail. She's the only one I need and I will never let go. I love her so much and how she loves me back without question or even a hint of doubt. Beth, I love you.