I haven’t slept since I got this project. I know I am not good ar graphics. Even if people say I am. I don’t deserve to even try at this. I haven’t slept because of personal problems. Nightmares. Insomnia. This has worried me to where I am in a breakdown. My sugery about two months ago, I realise in this I could have died and now, I’m killing myself because I am passionate about hammer horror, its the only thing I can show I know, the style of typography, colours used and sometimes pop art styles have always helped my work. Ten ideas for a power point. I have one. The rest I put down to make ten and if they get picked I will half ass everything I know it.
Tried talking to people over the weekend, but I can’t. Panicked myself. Isomnia back. I’m cracking up with all this. Haven’t slept, eaten or done anything but research and make mock up since Thursday. People are worried. I am.
Making the mocks up helped me realise ideas on hammer horror. Until I was told we do this in the second year by a former student. I can produce a power point on the history and movies of hammer horror and all its creative classes. But feel in all this since my sugery I am finally having a breakdown.
I don’t think I can do hammer horror, Jekyll and Sister Hyde justice. Or even graphic design the respect it deserves. I can never match up to how great someone can be at this.
What do I do. Is Jekyll and Hyde worth all this at what I am doing. Feel as if the characters are me with graphics, that I am them. Already so behind in college.