#hannah has thoughts

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okay i need to stop bc i keep finding things to be mad about when i want to be finding things to be excited about

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I was listening to Wildest Dreams this weekend and this Evanstan fic idea popped into my head....so I wrote it down?

This is basically the first thing I’ve ever “written,” so a HUGE shout out to my sweetheart @musette22 for looking at this and hyping me up!  Here we go 😬 (I hope you enjoy)

The song is told from Seb’s POV and Chris and Seb are professors at the same college. Chris is an art professor and his specialty is animation, and Seb is a language professor (Romanian) and they work in the same building. Chris is a little older, well respected, always seems stern and always has people around and Seb is newer, maybe hasn’t made many friends on staff yet.

So one day they’re at some staff function or whatnot and Chris is finally a little more relaxed, a little looser, maybe has some beer in his system and finally really noticed Seb and is like “whoa.” Chris walks over and it’s instant attraction and they make small talk but then

“He said, "Let's get out of this town

Drive out of the city, away from the crowds"

So they dip out to Chris’ lake house or whatever and obviously fuck.

“I thought heaven can't help me now

Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down

He's so tall and handsome as hell

He's so bad but he does it so well

I can see the end as it begins

My one condition is”

It’s beautiful and wonderful and amazing and they connect so well.

“Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress

Staring at the sunset, babe

Red lips and rosy cheeks

Say you'll see me again

Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, ah-ha

Wildest dreams, ah-ha”

And that happens several times on the weekends for several weeks but Chris never seems to really acknowledge Seb at work beyond just short fleeting glances.

“I said, "No one has to know what we do"

His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room

And his voice is a familiar sound

Nothing lasts forever but this is getting good now”

And Seb is hurt and doesn’t understand why Chris acts so in love on their weekends at the cabin yet doesn’t even pay him any mind at work.

“He's so tall and handsome as hell

He's so bad but he does it so well

And when we've had our very last kiss

My last request is

Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress

Staring at the sunset, babe

Red lips and rosy cheeks

Say you'll see me again

Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, ah-ha

Wildest dreams, ah-ha”

But even though Chris is falling legit in love hard and fast and he can tell Seb is too, he calls off their relationship. He has had his heart broken in the past and he doesn’t want to be hurt again because this love feels real and true and forever. He’s also never been in an actual relationship with a guy, he’s only had hookups and he’s scared. And Seb is hurt of course and doesn’t know why Chris broke things off.

“You'll see me in hindsight

Tangled up with you all night

Burnin' it down”

“Someday when you leave me

I bet these memories

Follow you around”

Chris is sad and is missing Seb but he doesn’t open up to Seb about why or why he broke things off, he just goes on a sabbatical, somewhere artsy like Europe. It’s summer and Seb is in Europe too, in Romania, and follows Chris on Instagram and sees he’s in Europe too. Eventually he sees Chris is in Italy and Seb just goes “fuck it” and goes to meet him. And he is able to track Chris down in Florence and Chris is at the Piazzale Michelangelo and Seb spots him and goes over. And they definitely have like a passionate kiss and probably tears and Chris asks Seb to dinner where he explains everything. And he has to say something about “never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be so lucky to have someone like you. And they spend the rest of the summer soaking up the Italian sun and being together 💕

[patton-snuggles]

My take:

Logan: hottest side

Roman: handsomest side

Patton: cutest side

Virgil: hot-yet-also-soft side

(yes I know they have the same face)

[hannah-stagram]

Thoughts I need to hear tonight that maybe you do too:

You are doing great

You are loved and you have people who care about you

You are worthy regardless

Your worth is not determined by the number of texts, likes, comments, and yes, even Tumblr asks and DMs you receive

(Read the above statement again)

You do not have to be perfect and it’s okay to make mistakes or to fail

Take a deep breath. You got this.

[hannah-stagram]

Another haircut, another selfie 🤷🏼‍♀️

[hannah-stagram]

On today’s version of a text post that no one needs feat. inappropriate thoughts at 11:15 am

I absolutely want to ruin this man

As said by my best friend @somerandombud, seeing pictures of Subastian: “It gives me this feeling of like I don’t care what we do as long as we’re sinning”

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I got a haircut, I feel really cute, enjoy this selfie ✌🏻

[hannah-stagram]

name: Hannah

pronouns:  She/Her

star sign:  Aquarius

height:  5’6”

age:  27 but I will be 28 in...11 days! (If I did the math right)

wallpapers:

My lock screen is a wedding picture so if you really want to see you can message me?

hogwarts house:  Hufflepuff!

ever had a crush on a teacher:  Not a crush but...

coolest halloween costume: Um. I was Tina from Bob’s Burgers once lol

favorite 90s tv show: I could name a few! I liked The Nanny, Full House, 7th Heaven and plenty more

have you ever been stood up:  Nope

favorite pair of shoes:  I love my Birkenstock’s or my Vans

have you ever been to vegas:  Nope and I don’t really want to go

favorite book:  ...does NEC count? Or The Great Alone and The Book Thief

stupidest thing you’ve ever done:  No comment

all time favorite shows:  Bob’s Burgers, The Golden Girls, Derry Girls

last movie you saw in theaters:  I literally have no idea

Thanks @hbalbat @justice-for-plums and @rainbowsandcoconut for the tag 💕

I’ll tag with no pressure: @kalee60 @darter-blue @howdoyousleep3 @hawkeyeandthewintersoldier @ywecanthavenicethingsanymore