Idk what it is that's happening
Stuck between 2 opinions..never felt so tensed
I dont know who shall I be just to..to myself or the others..
One side..there's someone who started believing in happiness..and thn..one who is looking for it..n then ...its me.
Sunlight shines equally for every flower in a garden but sm die..and some bloom..is it the same case with ppl???
Idk how anyone would feel about getting constantly torn apart because you choose to keep the other person's belief safe with u.
Enduring pain..is it the last thing im supposed to do on dis planet ??
Haven't i my life ??
But then..how cum is it my life..?
Like..idk..but after getting to know..U r d second child..I feel..it's my brother who deserved this..life
He came pure..went pure !
I'm smtimes envious of him..
But I'm obviously oblivious of many things .
Ignorant or just mayb I don't wanna open my eyes.
Mayb it's a dream..but in dis dream..I hv realised the true potential man has in him..the potential to destroy .
I'm not a good person ik dat very well
I make mistakes I hurt ppl..but is it really the reason y m feeling so depressed ??
It feels like as if it were seconds ago..when I was sitting in d sunlight.. with a strand of hair covering half of my eye
And I was euphoric.
Mayb it was some years back..the last time I laughed without any load on my heart..
Mayb it has been years now..that ive lost myself just fearing what might happen on letting go of the grip..
Mayb it's meant to be smthng else..
But..how should I let go
None can have it all
But then..I don't even have some !
Y is it that I compromise just to keep the heart safe.
I don't want this !
I don't.
And y on earth anyone would want it?
I just don't know..U ask me how m I doing I say all good.
End of the matter.!
