Gghghff okay I didn't have anywhere else to put this but basically I've been waiting to talk to my parents about possibly being autistic until I have a comprehensive file of evidence just bc I wasn't sure how they'd take it (my dad is pretty accepting about most stuff but my mom has handled my meltdowns poorly in the past so I was a little nervous about telling her)
BUT I didn't realize that I had been looking at autism books on my parents' Amazon instead of mine until today when my mom came up to my room and asked if I am researching autism in girls. We talked, and I told her, and while there was some stuff we don't quite see eye-to-eye about (she doesn't want me to get a diagnosis for the purpose of using it as an "excuse" to not try to make friends and doesn't like ND and NT labels) she was surprisingly supportive and said that if I end up wanting a diagnosis, she'll help and I. I cried a little bit after and I still feel a little like a bomb is going to drop but now I know that if I want a diagnosis I can get one without fighting my parents for it
