Dear future daughter,
I am unsure on how to really start this letter other than saying I really hope my "happiness" has been found. As a parent I feel that I should be happy, patient, understanding and most importantly supportive. I know my parents were not always the most understanding of what I was going through and I want to do my best not to repeat their mistakes. My patients may run thin but I know they are important because it will help me understand what you may be going through; I am sure you lose them with me as well. I may not understand you or the things you do but I will always support what will make you and the world around you a better place.
I believe that I love to learn so please be sure to know that I am always going to listen to what you are learning or feeling. I would never want you to sit in silence because you were scared to tell me your thoughts, opinions, or feelings. I will always try and understand as long as you know I was once your age; understanding each other is a fantastic thing and will take time since we are always changing. Understand that people have their own problems and that you do not need to add to them. Understanding people is often time understanding that just because you are the star of your own life doesn't mean you are in theirs and that it is okay to be a extra. You never have to be apart of someones life unless you want to; it is not your job to keep them interested; if you have to keep someone entertained or interested in your life they are not meant to be there. You be who you are and they will simply stay without argument.
I know that I am a bit argumentative but that does not mean that I do not listen to you just means that I have to find a new way to communicate when things are difficult. I will always try my hardest to hold back on the my way is the best way thought processes; it makes things difficult so please learn from that mistake. My anxiety holds me back from wanting to work in a group setting but I want you to know that working in groups is what helps you get over anxiety and you may meet some amazing people. Things will never be easy and if they are easy then you need to find something better.
Things I have learned that I hope you learn alot faster and easier then I did when I was your age; No one knows you better then you know yourself so do not hand over the power, that being said you are also not allowed to steal someones power. Understand and see that you do not need that boys approval you are perfect the way you are and do not need to change.That bad boy you want so bad and end up falling head over heels in love with someday will not change and that it is aokay to walk away from him and it is okay to cry over it. When it comes to trusting I may over trust and that often leads to heart break but it is so much better then building walls and refusing to let others in. Do not feel bad when they call you a feminist; understand that it just means they are scared of the change you are bringing to the table.Never apoligize for wanting to understand and learn but do apologize when you know you have done wrong. I will love and respect anyone you want to grow old with as long as they make you smile and make you work towards being a better person.