imperfections
Rem has things they are self conscious about, or thinks about a lot as an aspect about them that is imperfect. They do the best that they can to love themself because they have a mantra of "love yourself, because the world does not love you." Sometimes they change it to "Love yourself more than the people that do, just in case"
Overall body shape:
Rem is a firm believer in body posiivity, and is aware that lots of people may view them as conventionally attractive...or unattractive, as far as bigots go. However, they still experience body dysphoria, being the type of trans person that experiences that. They can have times where their body does not worry them and dysphoria is not present, but things change when dysphoria hits. Dyshphoria for them feels like a truck on their body that crushes them into the ground, and the very act of being around people and holding their head high is a feat.
Large breasts run in the family. Sometimes Rem likes them, sometimes they want to rip them to shreds. They know in their heart that their breasts shouldn't be a blatant excuse to misgender them, but there are really, really, really bad days.
Rem's hips are their best friend and worst enemy. They love their hips, they know other people love their hips...but...they do not like the idea that cis men will look at them and think "Ah yes, a perfect birthing capsule" along with "Mothering hips". It makes them feel very dysphoric and gross when people imply that their body is to be just used for "breeding", and it can really fuck with their head. Sometimes, you can find brusies on their hips because they will ram their hips into walls under the delusion that they can "flatten" them.
Their vagina is a host of feelings that they may or may not understand. There are days where their vag physically feels diseased, digusting, terrible, etc, and those are days where they are very quiet, as to not redirect any energy talking, needing that energy to keep composure. Sometimes after a lot of sex, they can have an anxiety attack at the harsh awknowledgement that a lot of people they have sex with have a warped view on their vagina (even if Rem has mantained control over them), and this causes them to experience minimal sexual attraction for a period of time. Rem is REALLY self conscious about the size of their clit, and their ability to squirt. May or may not physically flee from Ruuben when it happens with him.
Teeth:
Suprisingly or not, Rem has issues surrounding their teeth. Rem's teeth are somewhat "sharp" in general. Any tooth that has a "point" is sharper than usual, minus front teeth and the like. In particular Rem's canines are very prominent and sharp. Due to childhood bullying via name calling, Rem still has lasting thoughts about "vampire teeth" and being made fun of for being "freaky". Kids tended to move away from Rem in childhood the more that they sensed that Rem's neurotype was not "natural" to them.
Head/hair:
During an episode, Rem hurt themself on the head on accident. This occured on the right side of their head, and left a patch of skin shaved off that left a pretty noticable mark. Rem doesn't like talking about the episode, and started to go lengths for the scar to be hidden under longer hair. This, combined with another episode where they ripped a patch of hair off from their head on the left, is the reason for their "trademark" hairstyle that eventually comes in.
Breasts/Chest:
During time periods of rem being dysphoric/depressed and experencing high emotions, they do get the urge to self harm, but dont want it to be on a place where anyone might be able to see conventionally. So, during their more harsh times, they make small cuts underneath their breasts, which usually hidden by their mass. It's almost ritualistic at times, as if they're pretending they're performing a self masectomy (for extrme top dysphoria sequences). Certainly in the depths of night that is what they might think. While the cuts heal they are unlikely to pursue sex, and it is very difficult to discern what they are doing for awhile until they make a mistake and put themself in a situation where a person might see their underscars.
Hands/feet:
Because of physically and emotionally erratic behavior, Rem's hands and feet can get really banged up. During some episodes they might run around barefoot and not notice their feet get cut or injured, or be able to feel it. Coming back to reality later on they are likely to pick at scabs and try to make more cuts potentially. Since such pain is on their feet, they'll physically slow down and limp around and will need time for their wounds to heal. With their hands, they might pick up broken glass and clench, causing for more wounds. The scars on their hands from glass can trip them out and they'll feel the need to "add" onto the hurt, like with their feet.
Injection points:
With their insulin shots and then insulin pump, areas of injection may develop bruises seemingly at random. If talked to about it Rem might get snippy, as being diabetic is already stressful enough on top of everything else Rem deals with, no need to make unecessary comments.
Transitioning:
It should be noted that, while Rem is usually non op/does minimal transition stuff across aus, the actual willing option of surgery and hormones is unjustly denied to them based on their mental health history, and if Rem actually does do transition stuff, they're jumping through 5 loopholes, juggling 3 hats, leading in a mariachi band, and writing an angry letter with their teeth and spewing fire. Overall whatever steps across alternate universes and timelines, rem feels very mixed about doing anything transition related, and self conscious about physical changes.
Tattoos:
As radical as Rem's eventual tattoos are, there are plenty of people who loathe tattoos/make uneeded comments about the way Rem marks themself. Since the tattoos Rem has are all directly the art of Vinne, it feels not only like a cultural attack, but a familial one as well. Tattoo stigma can really bring Rem down. As they age, they care less, but it still hurts them.
Mental health:
Rem moves around a lot, says weird things, stops acting "normally" for periods of time, can get aggressive, and experiences breaks in reality. There's also the added stress of physical health and trying to "contend" with diabetes. People like Rem, but people don't like /dealing/ with Rem as an at risk mentaly ill trans person of color (who's later physically disabled). Rem notices this, and it causes them to get frazzled, desprately trying to inwardly reaffirm their worth and value as a person, deserving of love and care. In many instances, Vinne and the other siblings are literal lifelines to Rem's safety and autonomy as a person. The same can probably be assumed for Rem's closer friends, lovers.
Aging:
Physical disabilites come with age. Rem was already dealing with ableism in youth, so they're not new to the beast, but having physical disabilites does make the situation more stacked. Rem is fine with not having their legs for use as long as they can be in water and swim around. They are also fine with being blind, though unlearning visual reliance is difficult. They have the memory of how their grandma functioned and was happy, so that gives them strength. But they do have days or periods where they wonder "why are things like this?", "am I going to be ok?", "Is anyone actually here?". The physical pain that they get is also a factor of self doubt, they feel bad that they can't move around like they used to. But they try their best. They worry that no one will want to touch them, or get jumpy when people do touch them out of the blue.
The fat that they also develop is also another thing that makes them feel uneasy. They don't mind fat, plenty of people in their family are fat, friends they have are fat, they just feel weird/bad about how other people/society in general's general dismissal of them because they do have more weight on them. Being fat isn't something they've ever been in the past, so it's a bit of a learning experience that isn't always comfortable.