also guys I forgot to tell you that yesterday I saw a guy I met at my sister's wedding last year AND HE IMMEDIATELY CAME OVER TO ME AND INITIATED CONVERSATION AND IT WASN'T JUST POLITE LIKE IT WAS A NICE CONVERSATION AND HE LAUGHED AT MY JOKES AND HE MADE LIKE A LITTLE CONSPIRATORIAL ONE WITH ME ABOUT SOMETHING AND HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AS IF IT WAS FOR MY BENEFIT AND AWW AND HE SIDED WITH ME OVER CALVIN WHO ACTUALLY KNOWS HIM AND HE WAS HILARIOUS AND I SAT ON THE SEAT WHERE HIS FEET WERE AND HE DIDN'T MOVE THEM AND HIS LITTLE SISTER CAME OVER(we've hung out she's the best thing ever she's the most precocious six year old I've ever met she's like this mini genius and she plays pokemon and really likes Lion King) AND THEY WERE QUOTING LION KING AND SHE LIKE TACKLED HIM SINGING HAKUNA MATATA AND IT WAS THE CUTEST THING AND AFTERWARDS HE THOUGHT HE WAS LEAVING AND WE WERE STANDING BY THE DOOR AND I WAS BEING INTRODUCED TO AN OLD LADY AND HE STOOD WITH ME AND HE HAS THE NICEST SMILE AND HE USED IT LIBERALLY AND HE ALWAYS MADE EYE CONTACT WITH ME AND he gave me a once over when he walked up to me but idk it didn't kill him (and looks a lot like his big brother who I fancied when I was six and is my brother-in-laws best friend[when Stephen lived over here we called James 'the boyfriend' because he phoned him every Sunday night and went over to visit him all the time] and who is now engaged, awksss) AND HIS FAMILY ARE REALLY AWESOME AND THEY ALL HAVE THIS GREAT RELATIONSHIP AND THEY'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL AND#
an attractive (not just to me like I know proper 'cool' people who think he's hot) intelligent, funny guy MY AGE WILLINGLY chose to come over and talk to me after already meeting me and my potato face and I DIDN'T MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF IN FRONT OF HIM AND IT WAS REALLY RELAXED AND JUST
it's like i'm becoming normal