cw // vent , animal illness
god its really sinking in how ill my cat is right now... he hasnt eaten or drank since thursday before the emergency vet visit and hes notoriously difficult and wont let the vet do what she wants to wrt taking an xray of his throat
shes gonna give him a sedative and try and get a look at his throat while he's out and then send me home later with some appetite boosters, rich catfood, and more medicine
i just keep thinking 'he'll never purr for me again, he'll never chase his toys around again, he'll never be meowing at the door when he hears me in the hallway again, he'll never rub up on me for scritches again, he'll never tear through the apartment like a hellion again' and just, crying
and on top of it i have to go to work and wait on ignorant assholes and pretend everything is okay when its Not.