My arms are now so beyond the 'normal' level of fucked up I've sadly become accustomed to. Abscess on right arm currently, two are starting on the left after the whole desperately-need-new-needles-cant-get-new-needles debacle.
I'm mad at myself for everything I did, or I guess didn't do, that led up to this situation. I should have taken it slow last night/today or at least taken some breaks. The problem with that is usually once I find a spot that works, it ends up not working the more time there is between shots. That is one of the reasons I end up doing what most people tell me not to do; shot after shot after shot. I just got so frustrated with it, and it's not like I have a plethora of good veins to tap into. Plus the syringes I got last night totally confused my mind on how to know for sure if I registered or not, and also if even like a drip of blood got in at the tip and didn't move for .5 seconds the whole thing would clog/back up/ and then because it was the kind with the detachable needle the whole thing would blow up under the pressure so blood & drugs went flying.
Even though i thought this weekend would turn out ok since i reupped and had a smidgen of motivation to do some of the things i desperately need to get around to, it has turned into pure shite for me. Typical.
