2017 has been my lowest, when I thought that it couldn’t get worse, I was convinced God absolutely hated me. I moved house not because I wanted to, but because I lived with druggies that ruined my life. I am living with a mentally unstable woman with many different issues, who can’t seem to stand people, which is hard not to take personally. I am trying my hardest to be happy, I have changed jobs about 4 times this year, maybe more??? At present I don’t really have people I can confide in and rely on. It’s frustrating and I haven’t learned anything from the experiences I’ve been through. Just a lot of anger, a lot of hatred from people, and a lot of bullshit experiences I never deserved to deal with.
I barely had enough food to eat, from the shitty jobs I had to do, barely could pay my rent and bills, even had my car almost repossessed. I need better in my life.
I hope to God 2018 is much much better. I deserve that much. I deserve a decent job, a decent place to live, stability most of all, and people who wish negativity and hatred to dissipear from my life immediately. I want to be happy, I want to succeed, I want to meet a nice girl. Etc etc.
I needed to get so many things off my chest. I feel like my head is going to explode.