#haunted yapping

[haunted-house-sys]

Do you ever have those moments were internally you have the we/us/ours pronouns or even outwardly towards trusted people

Then suddenly you start using me/my/mine (etc) to ref to the sys collectively and then you just sit there and stare at the ground with the mini crisis you accidentally put yourself through like;

Have we been faking it all along?! What if we are actually a "me?" What if ive been lying to everyone?!

It gives us the similar thought process of when we accidentally misgender ourselves to those who know we're trans masc. The same discomfort and existential crisis of "are we faking?" And "are we lying to everyone including ourselves?"

But then on of the spirits (headmates) make a joke that is WILDLY different from how I'd joke about things and then the entire front room is giggling. Reality checks jfc.

- sincerely a traumagenic system, who often questions our existence... c':

[haunted-house-sys]

i hope you’re able to heal and not be so angry one day ❤️ much love

May the stars and all of their dying light bless us with the time, resources, and brEAK from trauma to be able to heal properly ♡

I, personally, am not an angry person (me as in Brier), im a peacekeeper. ☆

Forgive my little ramble here:

But BPD is super hard to live with on top of being a system and our other disorders. We only see in black or white. Much like systemhood, BPD is caused by severe childhood trauma. We never learned how to emotionally regulate. All of our emotions we feel mentally and physically.

But we do hope someday we can be better, this type of thing hurts us and we hate it tons.

MANY LOVES TO YOU TOO ANON♡♡♡

[haunted-house-sys]

Whats up guys-!

And that's a habit. Anyways, i wanna share something that i noticed since my appearance with the Haunted House.

But ive noticed a lot of confidence being built with them, with us, they feel a lot more... themselves and a lot more like-??

I dunno, like more just... open. Y'know?

Ima tell you guys its fucking WILD to be in a system, its weird as fuck and then to actively watch my source with Sam and The boys or the Triplets, and just feel the pseudo feelings its beyond me.

But i think i can speak for the Haunt and say that i bring a sense of gender euphoria but also a sense of gender envy-

I just want these guys to be happy and feel loved. They mean the absolute world to me and are there when I'm missing Sam, and I'm happy that i can bring a sense of comfort for them.

ANYWAYS THATS IT FOR THIS POST- iiii cont know what im doing PFFF