[ 𝐓𝐑𝐘 ] ― sender gives receiver a taste of what they’re cooking / baking for their opinion ― from liz to laurie & micheal
Michael is eight years old, and he sits on the living room rug watching Cynthia color. She lays on her stomach, legs kicking, and little hands clenched in tiny fists, manipulating the stubby, waxy crayons to masterfully create her picture. She's drawn a tree with green leaves and red apples, and a bit yellow dot for a sun. In the past year her art had changed from random scrawls and squiggles to the creative, colorful ideas of a child. She speaks in full sentences now and reads small books. Next year she'll go with Michael to school.
Under the tree she's drawn some people in pink and red. There's three little people, two with hay colored hair and a third with red. Two big people stand by them, one with really big with black hair and long scratches for a coat, and one a bit smaller with brown. They're primitive humans with blocky bodies but colorful clothes. Even with the crude skills of a four-year-old, Michael can tell what Cynthia is trying to depict. Their 'family.'
The Undertaker and his wife, and the kids: Michael, Cynthia, and Jon. Except, this wasn't right at all. It should be their parents and Michael, Cynthia, and — it's interesting how blood is the same color as the apples on the page. The same crimson hue, dyed, and smeared across his skin. Everything is all broken and screwed-up. Cynthia doesn't know that these people aren't their family. She doesn't know that this isn't their home. Michael doesn't know how to tell her.
There's a clatter in the kitchen. The Undertaker isn't home. He left earlier that morning after ruffling Michael's hair and telling him to, 'be good.' That meant Liz was around instead. She had kept an eye on them as she shuffled through papers at the kitchen table or read a book on the couch. Now, as the afternoon arrived, and the sky had clouded over, threatening rain, she was in the kitchen.
Michael stands, leaving Cynthia to her art, and walks over to the doorway. Liz has set up a stand mixer and arranged various bowls of ingredients on the counter. He's not tall enough to see what's in the bowls but he recognizes the yellow Tollhouse bag of chocolate chips. As Michael watches, she dumps sticks of butters into the running mixer, followed by sugar, and eggs. It's only as she's preparing to add in the flour that notices Michael.
"Hey, bud!" She greets, grinning at him.
Michael stands there and stares.
Unperturbed, Liz kept working. Sifting flour into the mixer bowl so that puffs escape from the whirling whisk. The sound of the mixer scratching along the sides of the metal bowl sounds good. Michael liked how rhythmic and predictable it was. He wanted to scrape his nails on the metal. He wondered what would happen if Liz got her hand stuck in the whisk.
Red. It's okay, the therapist told him, to have thoughts like that. It's okay to be wonder about pain, and injury, and hurt, and death. People do that. Michael is people.
Sometimes, Michael didn't feel like people. Except when he watchs Cynthia color, or she wraps her hand around his while she sleeps. Most of the time though he was pretty sure he was something else. Something not people.
He walks over and Liz presses a teaspoon filled with vanilla into his palm. He's just big enough to reach up and dump the teaspoon into the bowl. 'The fun part,' was next Liz declared. She hooks an arm around his waist, lifts him up, and let him turn the bag of chocolate into the bowl as the mixer whirled on the slowest setting. The chocolate chips studded the brown, sticky dough. Liz let Michael sit on the counter as she turns off the mixer and pulled the whisk out of the bowl.
She runs her finger through the dough stuck to the metal tines of the whisk. Sticks it in her mouth and groans, stamping her foot with joy. "You shouldn't have raw egg but, what's the point of life without uncooked cookie dough?" She says as she hands Michael the whisk.
If Michael loves one think it was sugar. He cleans up the whisk, working his fingers through the tines. The dough is rich and eggy, with sugar and chocolate. It tastes perfect. Liz scoops the cookie dough on to a sheet and put it into the oven to bake. She cleans up, Michael returns to Cynthia in the living room. She's putting her finishing touches on the crayon family: a big house that looks a lot like the funeral home.
This isn't their home and it isn't their family, but it's what they have, Michael realizes. It's what Cynthia knows. And if she's okay with it here, then, he guesses he is too.