why am i not the person, i wish i could be? everything inside me is shouting for a change. asking if i could become my ideal self. but still, my body acts on it's own. not hearing the voices inside me to make myself better. this isn't what i wanted to be. i don't like this. but something is pulling me, to stay just the i am right now and i don't even have the strength to stop it. it's like i don't have the control-- or maybe i have. maybe i can really change. i can become that someone i always wanted to. maybe, there's really nothing pulling me back. it's just that......i'm scared. Scared of becoming who i am.













