Gates threatening to take his dreams away and let him live, out of love, but it’s the most inconceivable, cruel thing to Flint, who would rather die in firey battle, and Flint kills Gates for it. “I didn’t want this, I didn’t want this.” I wanted love, again, and someone to believe in the raging inferno that drives me, again, but you put yourself in between me and his memory instead.
(somehow living people are rarely as powerful motivators as dead ones. they might be enablers, but rarely reasons. they can argue for themselves. they can exist as grey areas, the entire complexity of life is still moving in their faces. when a person doesn’t have their own agenda anymore their grave becomes fertile soil for any ambition we want to carry into battle. they become the black to the white or the white to the black and they can’t even object, can’t check in, can’t ground you into realizing what you are doing.)
for him. for his memory. he would have wanted it. funny how Gates’ death must become another mark on the wall of sunk cost fallacy. just like every death flint carries on his shoulders. It all has to have been worth for something. They needed to die for something. I killed someone for something.
for something.
for someone.
for someone
for another one
and then there’s Silver. “Take it from me. There is always a way.” And Flint, still grieving for the man he hoped would share his dreams in a way similar to Thomas, sees light. Sees another one. Another enabler. Stupidly hopes Silver can take that place. Little does he know Silver will eventually end the chain. Little does he know Silver will turn the
someone
into
all of them
All this will be for nothing. We will have been for nothing.
(All of them will be for nothing. I will have done this to them for nothing. I will suffer all this guilt for nothing.)
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[image descriptions
image 1: screenshot from season 1, episode 8. close-up: flint holding gates head after he killed him. only his eyes are visible, looking to the side in sorrow, regret, confusion.
image 2: screenshot of text in a screenplay font: to exalt her memory with battles. and victories.
image 3: flint in season 4, episode 10, a closeup on flint, bald head, read beard, blood in his face, a pleading face full of conflicted emotions and desperation staring right into the camera]
