#head shrinker

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Witch Doctor Head Shrinkers Kit (c. 60s)

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Space Sharing

So my man Jason has finally moved out fo our apartment. It was a sad day. He’s lived in the apartment almost as long as me and has probably been a bit of a constant around me the last couple of years, even with my comings and goings he’s never been far. I’d like to think he leaves a more well rounded individual from the straight laced guy that first walked through the door, and I’m glad he stayed as long as he has. I thought for sure he was gonna go within a few weeks after he found me smearing paint all over a large canvas on our lounge floor after a particularly lengthy session on some shrooms, the horror and shock across his face purely hysterical. Well he’s exited stage left to Brooklyn and in comes Kashie from Slovakia, ironic name considering he’s another banker. He’s over on a 2 yr secondment so let’s see how we can acclimatise this guy to our way of life.

Finding a new housemate is a chore, but rewarding, if you find someone who isn’t a psycho. One must also seek out a person who’s potentially gonna stick around for the long term, and who won’t also annoy the shit out of you within a few weeks. Kashie fits the bill nicely, although I’ll be having a bet one if the girls will try hit on him, because if his Adonis-like appearance. Probably Nic. A situation of this nature can go one of two ways which could see one or two people leaving, which would be a real bummer. Worry about that shit if it happens.

So Jase’s new place is real sweet, and big. His scant furniture makes the place look amazingly minimal… The look will go soon enough as I’m sure marriage is on the horizon, and then kids will probably be on the scene shortly afterwards. Goodbye minimalism. We’ve joked about it, me more than him, so I know it’s been discussed, why else would you buy a big house? Jase has promised a house warming party for the end of the month so I’m helping him make plans, which I have time to do well as my work contract is winding down to finish up at the end of the month. 

Have had some good therapy sessions of late, but few. I think I’m done with it. The shrink was pretty scathing of my ayahuasca weekend but seemed to understand after we spoke at length about it. He’s a good guy but now not as ‘open’ as I previously thought, so I feel like I’m being judged. Why? I’m not ashamed of what I did, or have ever done, I don’t think. There’s nothing I can think of off the bat, so no I was right first time. Will see it out till the end of the month and reassess. I still have some things to discuss and deal with so have to crunch it in so I can stick to my plan of taking the summer off and getting away. Not 100% sure of where to go but we have burning man tix so need to be here for that, which gives me a couple of months. Been thinking Haiti but will need something else to supplement. Some friends wanna take our bikes and go on a bit of a road trip south, which’ll be fun, but our bikes aren’t really aligned with touring, from a comfort and storage perspective, so I’m not sure how it’ll pan out. Spending anything more than a few hours on the road with a largish backpack hunched over a petrol tank is killer.

Had a lot to keep me busy this last month as Tribeca film festival had lots to offer. Went uptown to the Apollo for an awesome night, which reminded me my day with Sky. I wonder what she’s doing now. Should I contact her and find out? What would I say? She has her own shit going on and probably doesn’t want me messing that up. Have had some fun with Luce, especially going to Julien’s Rock memorabilia auction at the Hard Rock a couple of weekends ago. Luce bid on, and bought, a gold jumpsuit which Rihanna wore in one of her videos. I have to say  she looked pretty damn hot once she tried it on at home, and there was an awks moment when I told her so Seemed rude not to bid on anything so I had a dalliance with a cardigan worn by Kurt Cobain, but bailed when it got to $8k. I did however get a hand written poem by 2Pac, for what I would consider to be a reasonable price. Need to get it framed and find a home for it….. something I say with most art I buy and never do anything with.

Now we’re into June thoughts turn to my birthday. It’s looming and it’s a biggie I suppose. Turning 30 seems so mature and I feel far from it most of the time. Have I accomplished the things I set out to do when I was 20? I don’t think I had a plan then, except to make lots of money and have fun. Now I realise money isn’t everything, but it’s easy to say when you have some, and I do have fun albeit interspersed with some times when I’m down, so I can say that I have achieved those goals. Will trawl the web and chat to friends that have surpassed that milestone to look for some suggestions.

Later Gator

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Shrunk!

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Weirdo.

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So, realizing that I have limited funds for return head shrinker visits and that I'm probably almost intelligent enough to not give myself an O.D. (or over dose, as the hipsters call it) my Psychiatrist (who is awesome, knowledgeable, slightly cussy [in a reassuring manner]) gave me a bunch of different prescriptions to try on my own. The first was for a higher dosage extended release Ritalin, but there is apparently a nation wide shortage so I wasn't able to get it filled anywhere. I moved on to the second prescription which was Concerta, which is pretty much just an even more extended version of Ritalin. That didn't work very well. Although I felt like it made me a little more productive and quieted me extraneous threads of thought a little, it wasn't to any really significant extent. Also it made me kind of jittery and I got a pretty bad headache on the second day, but I'm not sure if that was because of the medication or because I've only been eating about a meal a day since I started my med trials and my body is like "Shit dude, you're hungry wtf eat something COMPLAIN."  

I'm trying Adderall at the moment. I don't know if it's working very well as I just got distracted from writing this blog post to look aimlessly at some web forum. Seems like my serial-single-tasking, as my head shrinker put it, is still in full swing. Maybe it takes some time to unlearn bad habits even when on meds though. Something to think about anyway.

Dr. Mysterious out!

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Meds!

So I think I have found pretty much the best head shrinker ever. More on that later. This is more about nerves. I have meds to try! A relatively low dose of Methylphenidate, a drug which I mistakenly believed was specifically for the hyperactive children version of ADD oh well, you live you learn. Nervous about trying it but am going to anyway. Will report back later.