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[atlanticluna]

I will never be this version of myself again, so let me slow down and enjoy being with her.

Let me love the moments in which all I want is to destroy myself. Let me appreciate the strength it takes to keep myself together. Let me cry myself to sleep one more time, not because of misery, but for the moments I missed while basking in the shadows of my own lament.

Let me finally allow someone to reach me, to appreciate me, to touch me, to love me; and let that person be me. For none have been as true to me as I, despite the scarcity of gratitude towards myself.

[dreamyrainbowwriter]

[atlanticluna]

I don't want a relationship like my parents—I cry out, watching a romance movie that portrays the "healthy" side of love.

I don't want a relationship like my parents—I claw at my throat, imagining myself in a relationship, catching glimpses of my mother's behavior in my actions towards my partner.

I don't want a relationship like my parents—I bend over and sob, blaming my father for the anger he's instilled in me because I am his daughter.

Why must I be the one to break the curse? They have shattered my perspective on love, and yet, I still strive to be better for the world, rather than succumbing to the same flaws.

[atlanticluna]

They promised they would be back and I actually believed them.

How foolish of me it was to think they were missing me as much as I was missing them.

They were suffocating in this agony, the same way I was.

They were hurting because they loved me the same way I loved them.

How stupid of me to think they cared for me the way I cared for them.

[dreamyrainbowwriter]

[dreamyrainbowwriter]

Stranded

I’m stranded now somewhere between wanting you back and letting you go. Stranded in the middle of our happiest memories, our smiling faces staring back at me, haunting me. Our most memorable, cherished memories follow me around like ghosts out for revenge. They hijack my thoughts whenever I wish to rest my mind, they sneak in when I’m distracted, they pop up at the most unfortune moments. When I decide to be happy, an old memory of us crops back up and reminds me of what I’ve lost. The pain of those memories is almost too heart-wrenching to bear.

When I try to let you go, you just come back to haunt me more. When I am in too much agony to keep holding on, I remember something beautiful between us - a private moment, that makes me cherish you more. It scares me to death to think that I will never love anyone like I loved you, like I just lost my last chance, the love of my life. 

All our bad moments have almost disappeared from my memory, as time has almost erased them. All I will be left with are the highlights of our time together, the memories I am deciding to keep in a special place in my mind that is only reserved for you. 

Now, I’m stranded. I am a lone traveler. I am alone. Stranded in the middle of nowhere, neither moving forward, nor backwards. Caught somewhere between wanting you back and letting you go.

[geminiconicc]

I want you to regret hurting me to the point where i had to walk away.

[dl-rus]

Heartbroken countdown.

I seriously don't know what to say , literally . I keep having hope for something that just wasn't there from the start, even though they showed you the love , it was just never enough.. I kept asking to be somebody in your life, like you girlfriend/boyfriend.. But there was always that fucking excuse, "I'm sorry but I don't love you that way, you're like a sister/brother to me, and I'm afraid that this ca ruin the relationship we have right now.. But I still love you." Like stop. I don't care , I've heard before, stop trying to make me feel better by lying to my fucking face , I'm not stupid.. Haha, and you know that worst part of all? Is that I had to be the one , the one who had to take the step.. It's funny how I'm the only one getting hurt, and trying not to cry when I write this, with a thing in my throat that I don't really know the name of.. You know what.. I'm sorry. For giving you a chance, and letting you in so easily.. I'm sorry.