18. Does love really exist?
yes. there’s… really only twoish (two and a half) people she loves in the world and even then it’s very nuanced: she loves her mom but she also resents her greatly for being an alcoholic and all the consequences that come with it. she kind of loves nick’s dad to a degree, mostly because he’s always been there so it’s more of like, just loving family, but he’s horrible to nick and she makes a point to remind him that she actually hates him every time they meet before they start interacting, like she’s reminding everyone where her loyalty belongs.
nick she loves passionately and thoroughly and fervently and endlessly, and all the adjectives a very dramatic 16 y/o would use. she loves him as family and as a friend and as a lover and as a partner in crime, eros and agape and phileo and storge and everything in between, entirely all-encompassing. so yes, love exists, and it’s defined by how far you’d be willing to go for someone and how much of yourself you would sacrifice for them.
32. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?
honestly? if they’re smart. not in a Sapiosexual TM kind of way, just what kind of vibe they give off and consequently how she’s going to act around them. she’s ridiculously quick to pick out clues about how people perceive her and what’ impression is more convenient to give in the long run, if she’s got enough leeway to fuck with people or if she needs to put off her Dark and Threatening persona on or if she’s gotta suck up to someone. also if they think she’s hot.
44. Is lying about something serious as bad as cheating?
i mean, technically, none of those are really that bad, unless you’re cheating on her, in which case you might as well consider yourself a dead man. she’s lucky she’s dating nick, because if she were dating anyone she’s less interested in she’d definitely be the cheater. herself above all else and all that selfish shit.
she lies a lot, for all situations and occasions, most of which imply gaining some kind of advantage. nick’s usually good at knowing when she’s lying though, and she rarely feels the need to lie to him unless she knows he’d disapprove. eventually she lies to him about being a dark wizard though so there’s that