Overwhelmed with gratitude is the only way i can describe how my weekend was .... to be a part of such loving and very healthy family environment is huge!!!! It's almost uncomfortable because the moments are sooo good and Justin reminded me that God is providing something i never really had...for a second it sounded frightening... "Im afraid i will lose this one too!" That negative voice in my head ... ...... Have you ever had a moment where you are just afraid to hold on to something that makes you feel good because you just know that it will just break your heart later?? I can't tell you how many times i told myself, "Mavic, get over it! You're delusional!!" ... . Learning to be gentle with myself is a long process to learn.... God's process is a slow process, i know this now. It's been quite a journey between God and I. And HE loves me through it all... .... The concept of a healthy relationship was an illusion i thought....let alone a family. I think i gave up on it... many times...and each time i quietly handed it over to the LORD....i guess maybe i just didn't know what to do with it. .... somehow i knew that FAMILY is important, even though i never really had one, deep in my heart i know the significance of it for it's the very thing that shattered a huge chunk of my life but it is the very thing that i secretly wanted..... .. . Psalm 27:14 says.. "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD" .... It is so true.. . Just because you are waiting doesn't mean God's not working. ❤ #grateful #family #nevergiveup #godkeepshispromises #blessed #love #Godisable #redeemed #Heisthetruthandlight #prayerworks