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The active movement of God is captured in these photos....and it's overwhelming. I spent the first few years of Elijah's life feeling defeated to the fact that i will have to do the best i can to provide a normal home for him...to be the both parents for him and hoping against hope that he will not have to feel missed out on how to be loved by a mom and a dad. ... ..... It was difficult. Deep in my heart i knew that it will be nearly impossible to achieve that for him. ... .. I'm just a Mom. ... But then God had a better plan. Well...of course HE does. And HE sure did know that even though i never wanted to admit... i couldn't do it by myself.... .... And one day, there's Justin... this fearless soul of a man.... you see, he's part of God's plan, and just as amazing as God's plan, HE also brought an amazing man. God gave him a new heart and new set of eyes and created a hope and a dream. ... You see that smile on Elijah's face? Yes, that's the kind of joy Justin brings to my son.... .... .. And the smile i have on my face these days....that's the joy that only God can bring!!!! #love #Godknowswhatyouneed #trustingthelord #Jesusisthecenter #redemption

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The active movement of God is captured in these photos....and it's overwhelming. I spent the first few years of Elijah's life feeling defeated to the fact that i will have to do the best i can to provide a normal home for him...to be the both parents for him and hoping against hope that he will not have to feel missed out on how to be loved by a mom and a dad. ... ..... It was difficult. Deep in my heart i knew that it will be nearly impossible to achieve that for him. ... .. I'm just a Mom. ... But then God had a better plan. Well...of course HE does. And HE sure did know that even though i never wanted to admit... i couldn't do it by myself.... .... And one day, there's Justin... this fearless soul of a man.... you see, he's part of God's plan, and just as amazing as God's plan, HE also brought an amazing man. God gave him a new heart and new set of eyes and created a hope and a dream. ... You see that smile on Elijah's face? Yes, that's the kind of joy Justin brings to my son.... .... .. And the smile i have on my face these days....that's the joy that only God can bring!!!! #love #Godknowswhatyouneed #trustingthelord #Jesusisthecenter #redemption

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Overwhelmed with gratitude is the only way i can describe how my weekend was .... to be a part of such loving and very healthy family environment is huge!!!! It's almost uncomfortable because the moments are sooo good and Justin reminded me that God is providing something i never really had...for a second it sounded frightening... "Im afraid i will lose this one too!" That negative voice in my head ... ...... Have you ever had a moment where you are just afraid to hold on to something that makes you feel good because you just know that it will just break your heart later?? I can't tell you how many times i told myself, "Mavic, get over it! You're delusional!!" ... . Learning to be gentle with myself is a long process to learn.... God's process is a slow process, i know this now. It's been quite a journey between God and I. And HE loves me through it all... .... The concept of a healthy relationship was an illusion i thought....let alone a family. I think i gave up on it... many times...and each time i quietly handed it over to the LORD....i guess maybe i just didn't know what to do with it. .... somehow i knew that FAMILY is important, even though i never really had one, deep in my heart i know the significance of it for it's the very thing that shattered a huge chunk of my life but it is the very thing that i secretly wanted..... .. . Psalm 27:14 says.. "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD" .... It is so true.. . Just because you are waiting doesn't mean God's not working. ❤ #grateful #family #nevergiveup #godkeepshispromises #blessed #love #Godisable #redeemed #Heisthetruthandlight #prayerworks

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Today was a good day! A simple yet extraordinarily blessed in so many ways... my journey has definitely been taking a lot of positive turns. It is so good to finally participate on a day like today with such gratitude in my heart! It is so good to hear "Happy Mother's Day" and actually take it to my heart and know that today truly is a day to be celebrated and treasured.... .... Mother's day used to be such a depressing day, it used to be a day spent with a heavy heart and thoughts about my own mother was the one thing that weighs a ton on my chest all day on Mother's Day.... i hated this day....i hated myself being a mother... i couldn't see a reason to be celebrated. ... "God will not give you anything that you cannot handle" - Did you know that God actually never said that??? And you will never find that statement anywhere in the bible?? But in 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"... .... You know, motherhood is not easy...singlemotherhood is definitely difficult, in fact singlemoms can sometimes tell you that it is a role that no one should handle alone...its a role more than what a person can bear sometimes. But God still allow these things to happen because HE is teaching us to seek HIM in these moments...God sure does gives all of us things that we cannot handle ... HE sure gave me many of those moments, He allowed me to go through difficulties and be utterly weak and helpless... ... But it's also in those moments that i learned ... "For when i am weak, then i am strong". - 2 Corinthians 12:10 #happymothersday #blessedbeyondmeasure #faithinGod #momentsofmine #mothersday #moms #gratefulstill #blessinginchaos #godismyrock #seekhimfirst

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AMEN!!! In all the ways that God is showing me today that inspite of the struggles .... that things are actually good...things are really good because i am able to set a good example to my son that praying and thanking the Lord is an important habit to develop. Being confident in praying that God does hear every word.... because HE does...HE really does!❤❤❤ My son had a little friend over for dinner tonight and he asked his friend if she knew how to pray, the little girl was confused...watching what was happening i was very surprised when Elijah started praying...i mean, confidently lead that prayer....afterwards he said..."That's how you pray, okay?" ... I wanted to cry as i was watching this.... Oh Lord.... thank you.... i am out of words right now.... just grateful..very grateful!!! ❤❤❤ #Godisgood #momentslikethis #mymomstory #preciousmoments #treasuredmemories #lovedforfree #Gratefulforthesemoments #singlemotherhood #Godknowswhatyouneed #faithoverfear #alliswell

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IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL.... It never cease to amaze me how much of that instant gratitude i get in my heart whenever i see the happiness this little boy has on his face. If there is such thing as "half sick" then, that's pretty much how i was this whole week...i planned on leaving work early since Tuesday but it never happened....somehow i managed to work through my full work hours the whole week! I couldn't wait for Saturday! I really wanted that 30 more minutes in bed but that did not work either.... "Mommy, it's time to get up!" ...that was at 7am this morning..oh goodness gracious!!! .... Spent the whole day with this tiny human is tiring but he's worth every effort despite of my lingering cough..and that constant need to blow my nose!! Oh man!!😞 Seeing him having so much fun running, playing, getting into everything that moves and even the ones that don't...he was all over the place! I can't tell you how many times he said " Mom look! Mom look!" ..as im sitting here writing this i can't help but smile.... as I'm taking a deep breath...i know he had a good day...WE had a good day!!! .... I can almost guarantee that a lot of mom's out there has lots of moments that you wish for a long uninterrupted sleep...but i can also guarantee that knowing your child is happy makes everything worth the feeling of being tired almost every dang day!!! In the end of the day... know that You are doing your best...even if no one knows about it... But God knows!!! After all, HIS opinion is really the only thing that will matter in the end. ❤❤❤ #mommyslittleboy #LoveGod #momentsofmine #itssaturday #moments #treasuredmemories #allpraiseandglorytogod #itiswellwithmysoul #wortheverysecond #trustingtheprocess #Godlovessinglemoms #lifeasasinglemom #toddlerlife #mom #singlemomandtired #itwillallbeokay #grateful #Blessedtohavefaith #Heisthetruthandlight #Beingamom

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He sure is BLESSED!!! With everything that this kid do these days, one of the most amazing thing is the developmemt of his confidence... to me that's huge! Confidence is something i struggled most of my life...and still do from time to time. He is growing a whole lot in so many areas, and the question of "why" is the word that comes out of his mouth 1,000 of times through out the day, he is seeking and observing, he never stops noticing things in his environment. As a singlemom, it's a lot to handle sometimes when his questions are deeper than they should... like, "Mom, can we have a house with a mom and a dad inside" ..... .. The truth is...just like him, i too am blessed beyond what i deserve! The presence of Christ in my little household is active and loud. My son might not have the traditional household but what we have right now is the best thing I've had....ever! That's what the Lord Jesus has done and continuing to do.... We love HIM because HE first loved us!!! ...... One of the most profound statement I've heard is this.. "Your greatest fear should not be of Failure, but rather, of succeeding at things that does not matter in the end of your day!" .... #loveGodfirst #Gratefulforthesemoments #JesusisourHope #blessed #moments #momblogger #tumblr #lovedforfree #faithoverfear

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These last few months of mamahood has truly been a practice of letting go.... i was so hang up on making sure that my house is always in order and tidy, i was very strict with my son spilling his drink and getting crumbs on the floor was a big No No around here.... i was driving myself insane and often forget that my son is only 4 years old. Talking about stress from being a controlling mom!!! Ha!!😐 ... Motherhood is such a crazy journey of new discoveries, surrendering, learning, gaining knowledge and losing yourself and finding yourself all at once!!! .... Who would have thought that this little human can bring so much in to my life and at the same time having him requires for me to let go and sacrifice a whole lot in order to gain so much more from it!!! ... #momentsofmine #singlemotherhood #love #journey #momblogger #grateful #Godisgood #Blessedtohavefaith #sharingmytruths #singleparenting #parentingisnteasy #lifeasamother #momlife #toddler #gifted #moms #tumblr #sweetmoments #precioustimewithmyGod

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•A SIGHT OF JOY• Seeing them together and how their relationship is continuing to blossom makes my heart smile! ... Yesterday, Out of the blue my son told me..." Mommy , i love Justin!" I said, "oh yeah? So what do you like about him" With his innocent little face, he said, "He plays with me, i like the Fight Together Play! " .... ... I realized that he was trying to tell me that because Justin plays with him the "boys play" ... they play rough and they go on the floor and play pretend with toy swords and robots.... i often forget that because my son is a boy that he enjoys doing boy stuff. He often tells me that He wants to be a big boy like Justin and yes i definitely use that to my advantage sometimes when he's acting up...i tell him...well, you know if you are going to continue to act like that you won't be a big boy like Justin...and it works everytime. 😊 ... I still remember those days when i would feel so bad for my son for just having me in his life. It put a ton of pressure on me to make sure that i am providing everything for him to be abe to grow up the way he should....being a single mom is a lonely world sometimes. ... ... But i am here to tell you, if you're a single parent but you have the Lord in your heart, you will realize that you're not raising your child alone. Our Father in heaven knows your needs and He hears the cry of your heart and HE will make a way when you think that there is no way! He is a good good God. .... And sometimes HE will even bring an amazing human being...like Justin to assist you on the rough journey. TRUST IN THE LORD...Always! ... #Godlovessinglemoms #blessed #gratefulformyGod #journeywithGod #momentsofmine #myGodmyredeemer #trustinthelord #withallyourheart #love #preciousmoments #moms #toddlerlife #beingsinglemomisnteasy #gifted #Momblogger #heisagiftfromGod #redeemed #light #hope #singleparenting #mymomstory #joy #myjourney

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"Why do you always take picture of me, Mommy?" .... "Well, so that when you're grown up, i have something to look at and see when you're this little!" .... "Ohhhh i know! Because you love me, Mommy!" .... "Yes! Yes i do!" .... This is not just a random moment. Any moment with him that gives opportunity to let him know that he is loved, is a moment to be treasured. When he gave me that joyful look and raised his eyebrows and said "ohhh i know! Because you love me, Mommy!" ..i know without a doubt that he will remember this moment later, not because of what we said to each other, but rather, it's what that moment made him feel.... He is loved. ... #preciousmoments #Gratefulforthesemoments #lovedforfree #joysofmotherhood #moments #lifewithatoddler #singlemotherhood #singleparenting #treasuredmemories #capturingthemoment #innocence #Godisgood #lovedforfree #momblogger #tumblr #joyful #myjourney #sharingmytruth #moms #love #blessed #redeemed #enjoytoday #lifeasamother #mothersaremysuperheroes #bepresent #grace #mercy #humility #Godknowswhatyouneed

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MOTHERHOOD consist of lots and lots of up's and downs... i mean EVERY dang day! And many times in one single day too! .. I woke up this morning with my son quietly climbing in to my bed and giving me morning snuggles...those are truly one of the most joyful moments of motherhood. I wanted to just freeze the moment but time does not wait for no one even if you're a singlemom! .. Almost every time before we leave the house...he starts whining about how he doesn't like his breakfast, or he doesn't want to go to school, he whines about his clothes and some other stuff that i honestly just try to tune out in my head as i try to beat the time and make it out the door on time...it's a need for a deep breath by the time we finally get in the car. .. Dropping him off to school is a hit or miss on being pleasant...he often grabs on to me tightly and beg for 5 hugs and 5 kisses before i go.... then i go to work....😥 .. That hour of drive from work to his daycare in the evening becomes a blessing than anything! It's tiring but it's also a time to re-center myself. I need that! Work might be over at 5pm but i gotta put on my "Mom-hat"...it's not over until he goes to bed... Yup! Thats a day in the life of this Momma!! But because of HIS great love and mercy... i know i can do this again tomorrow... #Ephesians2:4 #motherhood #lifewithatoddler #singleparenting #parenthood #parenting #momlife #Godknowswhatyouneed #truthaboutmotherhood #moments #Momblogger #tumblr #keepingitreal #blessed #praywirhoutceasing #faith #LoveGod #gratefulformyGod #momentsofmine #sharingmytruths

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•SUNDAY NAPS• Hah! That moment when you just stare at your child while he's napping because you just love him so much!!!! Quiet Sunday afternoon at home is the best!!! I can't help myself but truly just thank the Lord for guiding me through this journey of motherhood! It's a journey of multiple up's and down's and everything in between are those moments where you can breathe and know that you're ready for whatever comes next....because deep inside you, you know that every movement in this journey is teaching you something.... showing you just how brave mothers really are! Showing you just how magical this journey really is! Even when you know that some of these moments are incredibly hard.... with God's help...we will always be okay. Just a little bit of faith... that is all it takes sometimes...that is all it takes!!! ❤❤❤ #mothersaremysuperheroes #Godlovesmothers #graceandmercy #walkingbyfaithnotbysight #somedaysarehard #keepingitreal #moments #sharingmytruth #vulnerable #humblebeforeGod #toddlerlife #sunday #tumblr #momlife #naptime #lovedforfree #parentingisnteasy #singlemomrocks #faithinGod #Heisthetruthandthelight #love #moments #cherishingthemoment #iwillmissthisimsure #life #truth

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So many of us spent majority of our adult lives trying to survive and recover from our childhood....i sure did and still am... I realized that maybe one thing that I should really pray for as a mother is for the Lord to help me to raise a child that doesn't have to recover from his childhood....i hope to be able to always lean on my Creator...motherhood is not easy but the fruits from it when God is involved is definitely rewarding....i believe this today.... #iamblessed #momlife #ineedgodmorethananythingelse #grateful #godisgoodallthetime

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I've been out of the IG scene for a few days.... it's been quite a week for us!! Elijah has been sick on and off with fever and throwing up, his allergies are also lingering and flares up at night and getting him to eat becomes this big negotiation....ahhhhh...I'm just glad he's feeling a lot better today!!! .. The past week has really been quite a challenge with emotional battles with insecutiries and a ton of those not so positive thoughts.... i will just blame all that on PMS. So glad to have a boyfriend that i can be transparent with and accepts every part of me, good, bad and ugly! ... At one point this week i had a moment of getting on my knees and cried. Somehow i knew i needed that moment...that precious 3 minutes to allow myself in total vulnerability and being humble enough to say that... i can't do this alone! There really is a freedom when you let go even for just that a day...and maybe tomorrow, i can let go once again....❤❤❤❤❤🙇‍♀️ #beingsinglemomisnteasy #motherhood #prayerworks #Godknowswhatyouneed #lovedforfree #humility #beingamom #singleparenting #lifeasamother #toddlerlife #moments #precioustimewithmyGod #Jesusisking #transparent #sharingmytruth #freedominHim #momblogger #tumblr #truthandlight #askGod #Hehearsmyheart #itwillallbeokay #graceandmercy

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Movie time with this little one before bed seems to be a good idea to end our weekend... we both had a pretty rough weekend together, im just glad it's over for now. . I have to figure out how to make the weekend more fun for this tiny babe...i think maybe part of the reason why he acts up is because he's bored and he doesn't know what to do with all of that energy he has... he has lots and lots of energy!!! Are all boys like that??? Man! It's hard to keep up with him!!! . I'm not making an excuse but seriously...being a working single mom is no joke!!! If i can be real honest...i dont wanna do anything on weekends, i wanna sleep in, stay home and do nothing... 😔 .. In my heart of hearts.... i love being a mom! I love knowing that i get to do what i do everyday, yes it's exhausting but the thing is, i cannot be more grateful for my life today! I get to take care of a child and support both of us, keep a job and continue to trust in God regardless of how my day is... most of the time, all i can utter are these 3 words...GOD HELP ME!!! And sometimes, that's enough.... HE knows my every need... ... #singlemotherhood #Heisthetruthandthelight #moments #momlife #parentingisnteasy #lifewithatoddler #exhausted #mothers #lovedforfree #weekendchallenges #itwillallbeokay #Momblogger #tumblr #Godlovesmothers #Iamnotperfect #alliswell #workingsinglemom #keepingitreal #truthaboutmotherhood #toddler #mom #singleparenting

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That face!!! Looking at him, you can just tell how unhappy he's been lately about boundaries and Time-Outs.... we have been having a few episodes of evening tantrums and he sure is testing how far he can push it.... toddlers are pretty smart! But i guess that knowing how smart they really are definitely can put me on my toes! I have to say that it's not an easy process to try to get them to understand that there is this thing called "boundary" and "respect" and discipline is such a must at this age!!! Trying to get his attention and hoping that the connection between loving him and why he needs to listen to me will be visible in his head.....as a mom, i can only hope that im doing this right, but really...these are also those moments that breaks my heart because i fear that im causing sadness in his heart in the process... but maybe i should just be okay with that. Maybe i can also be vulnerable enough to show him that i get sad too and that it's okay.... life is not always going to be peachy, there are so much that we have to learn and the most valuable ones can only be achieved by going through the difficulties in the process of learning so that we can properly grow....maybe sadness is not a bad place to be sometimes...maybe we need to be there...sometimes.. #moment #momblogger #truthaboutmotherhood #keepingitreal #growth #Godisgood #singlemotherhood #parenthood #parentingisnteasy #tumblr #journey #momlife #singleparenting #toddlerlife #love #instablogger #thoughts #lovedforfree #appreciated #sadness #reasons #thewhy #newgracenewmercies #gratefulforthese #Godisgood #preciousmoments #love #life

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•HUMBLE PARENTING• Humility is one thing that i don't normally hear about in discussion about parenting. At least i thought i was for a moment when my child was just an infant because i survived the many rough moments...Breastfeeding? Sure! I got that handled! Baby waking ip and crying many times throughout the night? Sure! I managed that! My baby having a fever? Sure! We went through that too! Teething? Oh sure! It was a piece of cake! ....we survived and lived through that... just me and my child! I was an expert to this...i thought!!! Ahahaha!!! Nope!!! Now my child is a toddler! All of a sudden he has his opinion to things and questions the things i say and do!! 😕 Talking about Humility!!! I am realizing that surrendering to the idea that i know a lot about parenting is a much easier path to motherhood if i want to keep myself sane! You guys! I have to be careful at how i choose my words when i speak because he sure knows how to repeat my words..unexpectedly sometimes! He is watching me...a lot...all the time!! Let me tell you something.... I am utterly untutored to this world of parenting!!! Let's talk about it!!!! #parentingisnteasy #mothersaremysuperheroes #gratefulnomatterwhat #blessedtobeamom #singlemom #beingamom #parenting #mommying #moments #truthaboutmotherhood #singleparenting #lifewithatoddler #toddler #momblogger #tumblr