I've been asking God to make a way. He has granted me favour before and broken protocols for my sake. I've seen you do it before Lord. Please do it again. I believe I'll see you do it again. _____________________ I voiced out some of my concerns to my mum who initially made them a concern. I became so anxious and uncertain about everything again. Just when my faith was being steadied. The 'what ifs' came along and she said that I should submit to God's will. In my head I thought ' well that's what I've been doing hence why I am here.' She then said something about God's plans which I didn't fully hear or want to because 😒 Yesterday I was fine with wherever God would lead me but today when the reality of me being unable to go with what seems like the 'best' option set in, that changed. As I was thinking to myself, I started to sing 'Jesus You are my firm foundation' out of nowhere. I wasn't in a singing mood so I quieted myself but my mouth would open again and sing this song like it was a necessity. So I sang and it was when I got to the part that said 'God has a plan for me, of this I am sure' that it clicked. That's what God has been saying to me. My plan, my way, my will. Not the logical way or option, not your parents, not yours even as you plead but mine. Then the 'of this I'm sure' part of the song convicted me. I know God has a plan for me. I'm learning to allow Him lead even where I'm not content with and it is my surety of this that is being tested every passing second. Even when the logical way forward is blocked and i know you are aware Lord and are able to remove the obstacle. I'm learning to sing that You still have a plan for me through, by, in, outside this and most importantly, of this I am sure. Jesus You are my firm foundation. I know I can stand secure and secure will i stand. I put my hope in Your word. You've never failed me yet. I won't forget.
