#hellneverseethis

[unsaid-yet-felt]

I miss you

I have no way to talk to you

And a way to see you

But it's not the right time yet

For what can I bring to you besides utter and total destruction

How can I be ready to bear responsibility for what I'd to us, to you

Without first bearing responsibility for what I have to do for myself

I wish I could give you this privilege

The privilege of ending it for us, right there and right then

Even if you tell me no

I'll be happy

For I have finally found a place where both of us are free from faces, from control.

We are free to love

Free to reject the love

We are finally free

Even If only for a brief moment

[makeitasweetgoodbyee]

Dear This Guy Who Gave Me My First Kiss,

You gave me my first kiss which was everything i dreamed about and it was perfect. The way you held my hand the whole way back even though it was the most awkward seating pattern with me in a seat and you in the trunk, we still managed to hold hands. We kissed so many times and i was really happy about that before i had to go. I had to leave for hawaii but i know we wanted to see each other when i got back. You said you missed me and yea i missed you too. I got back and when i saw you at warped, i was so happy to finally see you again. I loved being able to kiss you. I really did. I feel like you don't feel the same way as i do about you and it sucks because i like you and i haven't really felt like cared for i guess you could say. When you hugged me, it was like i felt cared for. Idk i sound so stupid mumbling on about this cause you'll probably never see this, but yes if you ever would ask me out, i'd probably say yes.