#hello avpd

[weareknot]

You know what, I'm fucking sick of this. I can't talk to anyone, inside or outside my head. Obviously those are two separate problems but still I'm just so fucking done.

Denial is sky high again because our internal communication is zero and we're not switching much (probably because we're constantly hiding from housemates who don't believe us).

And outside? Talking to people?? No, everyone is laughing about me and talking about me behind my back. Every time I go to speak to anyone I'm reminded that they don't want me here, I shouldn't be talking to them and wasting their time.

[weareknot]

if anyone needs to block all the "I'm sad and lonely" shit I'm reblogging atm, I'm tagging with "#hello avpd"

[weareknot]

I get that it's basically impossible to like me at this point, that's been shown over and over and over, but I don't understand why. What am I doing wrong? Is it just me? Is it something I do? Is it something an alter does that I don't remember?? Why am I so consistently unlikeable by everyone?