I've been in the hospital for 19 days today with pre-eclampsia, ans they think it's developing into HELLP syndrome so that's scary. I'm 28 weeks and 4 days today Dec 17, 2022. Baby isn't due until March 7, 2023. Baby is gonna be early, not just by months, but an entirely different year.
I just got the first of two steroid shots today to help the lungs develop quicker, and we're hoping Baby can stay in until Monday to get the full exposure to both doses of steroid and have maximum lung help.
They've also got me on 3 different meds to keep my blood pressure down, 2 of which I'm on the maximum dose for.
This pregnancy was so easy up until a few weeks ago, and I can't help but feel like I failed somehow. Like my body failed somehow, between the pre-eclampsia and the HELLP syndrome and the gestational diabetes.
The NICU team said that the baby will need to be in the NICU for about 2½ months after delivery to help finish developing. I'm scared to leave the baby in the hospital rather than coming home together, even though I know the NICU team here is amazing.
I was a NICU baby in 1995, and I turned out fine. I know plenty of NICU babies older and younger than myself, and medicine is always improving, so I know I have nothing to worry about.
But I'm scared anyways.
