Jul 4
anyways, seen some people articulate something similar & i feel like it’s given me some language to tackle this too. basically, i am not in a good place here. i’m looking at notes way too much, feeling left out, feeling burned out & uninspired, & just not having a grand time. not anyone’s fault, just the nature of the experience sometimes, & being chronically online, so will be disappearing this week to go touch grass <3
#like in my head i know it’s just a symptom of the dash being quieter as people do more in the summer. also it’s hot af outside.#timezones have never been in my favour & all of this means the dash is slow. or i miss shenanigans when they do happen.#plus she’s not always the easiest character to shenanigan with & i know that. but for whatever reason ( chronically online & external#validation needs & just general lack of writing & inspo otherwise ) it’s eating me up more than usual.#so going to take a step back. this isn’t goodbye i’m way too attached to just quit.#( & even if i do. history has shown me that i will always crawl back here. ) but challenging myself to go a week without checking#for notifications or anything about this blog. i’ll check back in next weekend & see how i’m feeling then. but want to give myself time off#here essentially.#in a way i’m tempted to say maybe chuck a lil positive thing in my inbox if you’re so inclined but then i’m also not sure if that’s#indulging the validation monster in a different way. idk#but yeah i will schedule a few posts & then remove the app & disco for the week to get away & as said will see how it goes.#i know I’ve been astronomically slow already so i’m sorry to be again but i hope this helps before it’s really big burnout & a big issue.#see you on the flip side <3