his alphabet - the one given to him - is missing one key item, and it maddens him.
it maddens him so much so that we can only just believe it. a confusion.
he speaks of a twist of the tongue, a hook of muscle. the magic of linguistics.
he shouts! he yells! all of his might is placed into the vile sound. felt in the stomach, the spleen. it is indeed insanity.
and what would give ease to his visible plight, that he might end this [nonsense]?
he goes on, as if always climbing a steep hill. constant. (consonant!) endless. even. even.
a swelling of the neck, bloodied nose, busted lips. all of the symptoms. of what, of what?
what is all this but wind. loud, sometimes cold, sometimes wet. lightning, heavy scented. yet always at night. it can only be so. all of the heavenly bodies go out as if nodding, "yes, yes."
heavenly bodies. he has not thought of those angels until now.
he howls again. close to keening, he makes all possible lamentations.
the appellation of a plagued language is spoken, quietly, quietly. then less so. loud, loud, a sudden noise, a massive tumult--
the black-winged demons have been listening. we knew this, didn't we? laughing, cackling, coughing out odd accounts of his life chosen without decision.
(this is one of the vast could-be-endings, if he did not also have the music of the night in his head. he might engage himself by listing off some of his best-loved bands: Clan of Xymox, QNTAL... enough! as usual, he’s consigned to limbo his hideous situation of late.)
damn this kneipho (vanilla twist) question, damn these sentences of manipulation and lack!
he damns these things, yet still he continues making his way to oblivion.
this tale goes on uselessly, pointlessly, all the way to hell, to nothing.
a pleasant new void of sound.