#hey future self

[sparklemotioneer]

I didn't leave the house today and missed my trainings bc I was "tired" and "grumpy" and guess what now I'm even more tired and grumpy

[shiny-good-rock]

sybilius said: 

GOOD FUCKIN FACE

sybilius said: 

A+++ FREN

AHHHHHHHHHH, THANK VERY, YOU ARE A SWEET

[fhnsty]

I started thinking about mutations... Crash Course Channel http://youtube.com/crashcourse Follow me http://facebook.com/ClairityProject http://twitter.com/cl...

This is the first day of 2017. Maybe it’d be better if I just write down about my new year resolution or the likes. But no. I’d like to open up a theme related to my inferiority about taking care of people with terminal illness, and this will be a personal monologue to my future self. That, in case, if i’ll ever get trapped in a dark loop of questioning myself again.

So this is the new year, and I had to embrace abundant news about the passing of some innocent kids that had had honorable battle with cancer. The amount would be to much to handle if I keep thinking with the ‘why’ approach. If there’s anything I learned from last year, it’d be that I should start see things with the ‘how’ approach. I know that those seemingly unfair facts happen everyday in our life, but I won’t make anything better with asking why life is like that and so on. It’s much more effective if I think: how should I respond to the situation so that at least things won’t get worse, how can I help.

And Hes, there won’t be anybody else to remind you about this because you’re basically on your own. There used to be some good listeners for you but they didn’t last, and you shouldn’t have relied on their presence in the first place. So this post is for the future Hes. When you start doubting yourself again whether your attempt to help would have a good or bad impact, watch this video. Rewatch the movie screened at MSF about living in the emergency. 

Because most of the time, it’s not about you are being valuable to others by your choice, it’s the situation that just happens, and you just have to roll with it.

[miles-b-clownin]

Dear Me: A Reminder For Bad Times

She is your everything. She is the one who ignited a lustful, burning passion inside you. She is the one who has made you feel and think things you never even considered possible before. She is your sun and your moon and your stars. She lights your body of fire, sending you into a mental frenzy of emotion. She ignited a spark inside your heart and now you burn bright for her. For her alone. She makes your heart dance to a song you didn't know anyone could play. And now you can't imagine anyone else knowing the song. You know no one else can make your heart dance. You know she is yours. You are hers. She feels everything for you as you feel for her. She breathes for you as you breathe for her. She may not voice it as much as you, but you know she does. You are lucky. So so lucky to have the best girl in the world. The only girl you have ever cared about. She is everything. And you will never let her go. Never. Not ever. She is the love of your life. And you are hers. Remember that.

[audience-assassination]

My birthday is next week and I'm so bummed. I'm not excited in the slightest. There used to be a whimsy to birthdays. Now I see it as just another day? I've gotten very cynical this year. I'm trying to think if there was anything I wanted to get done by this time last year. Nah, I didn't have time to think ahead. I was too busy working on being sober and healthy. Now that I am both, I'm very uncomfortable. I feel as if I'm not myself anymore. After conquering my depression, I'm fighting anxiety. I feel like I've haven't gotten a break where I think to myself- "Yes, I am alive and okay." I'm a constant project. I have to reel myself into reality so often. I'm too far off in space. Making up plots in my heads about how all my friends hate and use me. And how I could hate and use them to get them back. Then I have a brief moment of sanity and realize I making this all up. I'm worried about things that aren't even problems yet. So, since I didn't make any goals for next year, I'll do that now. 

1. Get your shit together. Do you want to be alone or is it all you know? 

2. Having a job would be ace. Considering you'll be a legal adult.

3. Don't smoke, god damn it Ivy. Don't kill your lungs to look like a pseudo badass. 

4. Be indepent. Be self serving. Consider yourself.

5. Don't just talk about the things you want to do, DO THEM.

Really, I just want to be the best person I know I can be. I know there's so much potential in this head of nonsense. I'm fighting myself to get it out there. 

All I want for my birthday is a big bootied hoe.

Nawh, I just want a kitten and nap. 

[ohpussum]

That Robaz gif of Skyrim is my favorite.

I actually didnt know where it was from, but it all makes sense now! I’ll have to watch it later.

[tormod]

im just making a list of stuff i gotta watch/read/play so i dont keep forgetting when i get bored

Witch's House

Mad Father

One Piece 

Watamote

SDR2 (HAHAHA AHa )

One Punch Man

PunPun

JoJos Bizarre Adventure

other things nami talks about but i dont know the name

othe r things chloe talks about but i dont know the name

[cadaver1ne]

[5:02:53 AM] tako~*: ped

[5:02:55 AM] tako~*: obea

[5:02:56 AM] tako~*: r

[5:02:57 AM] tako~*: ?

[5:02:59 AM] tako~*: no

[5:02:59 AM] Poniko: wh

[5:03:00 AM] Poniko: what

[5:03:00 AM] tako~*: bad anita

[5:03:02 AM] tako~*: slaps self

[5:03:03 AM] tako~*: slaps

[5:03:05 AM] Poniko: what the--

[5:03:07 AM] tako~*: slaps again

[5:03:07 AM] Poniko: KSAJHJD

[5:03:09 AM] Poniko: SLAPS

[5:03:13 AM] tako~*: CRIES

[5:03:15 AM] Poniko: omg

[5:03:16 AM] Poniko: you

[5:03:18 AM] Poniko: at 5 am

[5:03:30 AM] Poniko: it both amuses me and wants to make me put you in a dark room with no lights

[5:03:37 AM] Poniko: and lock you in it

[5:03:38 AM] tako~*: id sleep

[5:03:46 AM] Poniko: yes

[5:03:48 AM] Poniko: so

[5:03:55 AM] tako~*: is there internet in the room

[5:03:59 AM] Poniko: rp somethin tomorrow y/n???

[5:04:01 AM] Poniko: OMG F O C US

[5:04:02 AM] tako~*: oh y

[5:04:06 AM] Poniko: yay okay

[5:04:07 AM] Poniko: jesus

[5:04:13 AM] Poniko: it was two simple questions

[5:04:15 AM] Poniko: go to sleep

[5:04:26 AM] tako~*: after i post more of this to tumblr

[5:04:30 AM] tako~*: so i can look at it in the morning

[5:04:35 AM] tako~*: and not stay up to 5am again

[5:04:38 AM] Poniko: o kay

[5:04:40 AM] Poniko: good plan

[5:04:44 AM] Poniko: this is qualityu plajn

[5:04:49 AM] Poniko: quakiuty

[5:04:49 AM] Poniko: FUCK

[5:04:54 AM] Poniko: QUALI

[5:04:54 AM] Poniko: TU

[5:04:58 AM] Poniko: FUCHJ

[5:04:58 AM] Poniko: KJHSDF

[5:05:03 AM] Poniko: yeh fuck it