full of emotions, unfortunately

// he/him // early 30's // 18+ to follow // •☆♤QUEER LEFTIST♤☆• earthengear-arts.tumblr.com anti-censorship, antifascist. i like cowboys, knights, elves, art, RWBY, Arcane, and Jedi Fallen Order (HAUUGGHH)

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jedi survivor thoughts part uhhh 14 i think AGAIN MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR ENDGAME SPOILERS

cal: "I just sensed something, Greez. Did you feel that?" cal that is the second most concerning thing you possibly could have said, the first being "i'm fine"

Cere: "Cal. Master Tapal would be proud of the Jedi you've become." straight up had to pause the game. i'm FINE

THE FADE TO BLACK.....I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS LMAO. they fucked!!!

CORDOVA//////im cry.

EXCUSE ME???? BODE IS WHAT/? HE'S FUCKIGN WHAT

i knew that he betrayed cal. i did not know uhhhhhhh any of the rest of it. and may i just say: holy shit

oh no. not again. god why does every fucking jedi we find have to be evil. that's so fucking depressing.

this plot line hits soooo much fucking harder than merrical no offense

the fucking respawn

HANG ON FUCKING WHAT WHY I AM PLAYING CERE RIGHT NOW

man i wanted to play cere but not like this. jesus fucking christ (straight up unsure if cal is alive at this point) (this is awesome by the way)

absolutely love that cere is just SO absurdly capable. and that her meditation points look different. of course they do!! i fucking love that. also tried to go into the menu to see what skills she has and they so wisely do not give me that information lmaoooo

god cere is so fucking cool. it is genuinely hilarious how clumsy and inept cal is by comparison

related: why are they having me save every four seconds. cere has fucking got this lmao

genuinely devastating to see the archive in flames. their hard work.....gone

............oh OK so we're fucked. vader's here. we're just fucked now

this fucking fight has my heart pounding. i keep yelling "COME ON CERE" looool. dude. everything is fine. one death so far.

death count: ||||| ||||| | (i got so fucking close that time and yelled "NO!!!!" embarassingly loudly) |||| |

i am genuinely devastated by cere's death. dude. i'm experiencing an emotion. maybe two.

also meta-wise what a brilliant way to have the player experience the lead-up to cere's death (cal experiencing the force echo of what you played through.) smart, devastating choice

it is soooooo normal and fine that cal's meditation space is now tinged with red. and also that i can use sith powers. don't even worry about it

gotta say, this is probably controversial considering the number of times i saw this in the tags for jfo, but i just wasn't ever interested in inquisitor!cal. it just seems kind of boring tbh. it's more interesting with the events of jedi survivor, but still....honestly? i'm more interested in having a main character who has a moral code. i do really enjoy the way that they're playing with his morality here! and i'm glad it wasn't just "cal is an inquisitor now." i think that's what's unappealing to me about au's where he works for the empire--without significant buildup, i am just not on board with it. this IS really solid rationale for why cal would suddenly be OK with doing stuff that up til now was morally unpalatable. (that said, to each their own and i'm glad that other people enjoy their au's--everybody's got their own preferences. (-: )

bode fight count: ||||| (lost count tbh, too lazy to rewatch the stream and check)

bed time

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in the hall of the mayonnaise king

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getting some mixed reviews on this one. almost as well-mixed as an emulsion of egg yolks and vegetable oil

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jedi survivor thoughts part 13 - MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD. getting into the endgame, i think

daganfight part 74! climbing up the observatory. the balloon puzzles are fun and make my brain genuinely feel like we're up high doing dangerous shit at times lol. still not suuuuuper sure what dagan is trying to do, which is pretty wild given how far we are in the story. maybe i missed some important conversation. that IS plausible. hoping we find out more here (i'm betting we will because one of bd's scans just talked about the properties of the koboh dust)

Cal: "They think he's taking them to Tanalorr." Bode: "Over my dead body." bro your first few lines involved you talking about wanting to see your daughter again. say something else.

BODE YOU CAN'T KEEP TALKING ABOUT GOUR DAUGHTER DUDE THEY'RE GONNA KILL YOU

lmao there's a latching point for the cable on the ground in this hallway. this structure is for suuuuure gonna stay airborne and nothing bad will happen. AWW tumblr ate my edit but i realized that this was actually a hatch to somewhere loool

can't remember if i already said this here but i was unfortunately already majorly spoiled by someone's fully untagged pinned post (very cool! thank you for doing that! :-/) as to part of what happens with bode, but i also think they're gonna kill him because he keeps talking about how much he loves his family, rip

going up to meet dagan with zero (0) stims left. i'm sure this will go really well! maybe we'll have a tea party instead of fighting! [upside down smiley face emoji] THANK FUCK meditation point right before. i got crushed by urgost earlier without thinking ahead to backtrack and save and had to do the whole beginning part twice, so. who knows with this game loooool

hugoweavingbaskets and i were talking about cal's reverence for the dead even when they were his enemy up until the end and man. man. the fact that he places dagan's lightsaber back with him.......man.

SUPER COOL FIGHT BTW. i BARELY got it on the first try (no stims bingus!). the ceiling fight was insane. really liked that development with cal's psychometry. i think i was primed for this by reading a fic that mentioned this type of thing and handled it really well (used a "ghost" from someone's past to haunt them, basically) and it makes sense that he would be able to do that

also yay big plot question resolved: dagan wanted to go malicos-mode and make Jedi 2: Shitty And Worse using tanalorr. incredibly funny timing for me to play through this after the real life schism drama that just happened irl. i'm not catholic but i'd be mcfucking losing it over this plot if i was. jedi schism! jedi schism!!

i am kiiiind of surprised that there wasn't a Big Bad from the empire? although i suspect that may be next with bode..? really liked the writing in that last cutscene with cal and bode--it makes sense from cal's perspective that bode would be hesitant to press their advantage and just want to be done.

went back to pyloon's after because i loooove getting all the little snippets of dialogue and the game crashed while i was playing holotactics! oh no

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in the hall of the mayonnaise king

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@hugoweavingbaskets @tiny-knives hellow founding members of the bd and cal best friend club

(i think they're best friends and i would at all times like to talk about it)

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everyone reading this is invited to the club btw (-:

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fuck dude what if i watched andor again

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@hugoweavingbaskets @tiny-knives hellow founding members of the bd and cal best friend club

(i think they're best friends and i would at all times like to talk about it)

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also. there HAS to be crazy amounts of cal/rayvis on ao3 right??? the tentacles??

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TWO WORKS??????

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also. there HAS to be crazy amounts of cal/rayvis on ao3 right??? the tentacles??

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jedi survivor thoughts part 12

huh! the fractured remnants kind of look like the literally fractured remnants of the venator cal was on, you know? that fractured momentum one was HARD holy shit

back to the shattered moon!

yayyy merrin getting to do a little merrin stuff. i miss the dathomir culture/tradition discussions

extremely suspicious that the approach has been so easy. "the only way through is the firing chamber" OK nevermind looool

the mantis flyby has me so worried. if they hurt greez.......

cheesed the ENTIRE first couple fights next to the beam by pushing every single enemy into the murder beam. this is why railings are important

IONIZING CALIBRATIONS?? OK so cal is definitely going to get turbocancer of some kind cool. i was joking when i called the beams ionizing before rip

re: rayvis' speech--yeah man i just don't think "you've killed therefore you're no different from the empire" is a compelling argument (killing in the name of fascism is NOT the same as killing fascists. something something paradox of intolerance) and i think if cal had spent a significant amount of time around freedom fighters he would be uhhh pretty well steeped in that train of thought

OK, fascinating that rayvis is also weirdly obsessed with tanalorr?? my hypothesis that it makes you crazy gains credence or something

REALLY interesting that santari lied to the council about something too??? we are missing so much information here hahaha

ah, OK, cal is having a crisis of conscience about what rayvis said. again i just don't think that anyone who's been around leftists for more than an hour is unaware of the paradox of intolerance and uh. ngl i simply think cal would have either resolved his concerns about whether the fight against the empire is the same as the empire's fight literally in about two seconds. like. he's been fighting for years. this is not a new equilibrium that needs to be struck. getting the sense that the people writing this story have read minimal theory lmaoooo. well hey, if they do end up going the route of paradox of intolerance then great. i don't think they will! but it would be cool if they did. that's uh. kind of what star wars is built on.

okaaaayyyyy why was merrin being weird just there. also again: merrin doesn't have any additional dialogue immediately after what seemed like it was supposed to be a significant Look between her and cal. we've barely had any dialogue since she uh you know grabbed cal and made out with him right before they almost died. and yet! i can once again speak to bode! OH OK THANK FUCK they had a conversation just after that scene. happy to be wrong.

that was a VERY fun level. the fighting was difficult but not absolutely crushing and the puzzles were really fun to navigate.

way too hot in the computer room right now so i'm taking a break until the temperature goes down

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Movement nudge! UN-stiff edition.

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got so mad about current events i ate dinner way too fast lmao

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That's almost it for this Pride Month. Before we go, there's one more thing we'd like to show you. Please take a look:

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has anyone else noticed that pretty much everyone who is worth knowing seems to be doing really bad all of the time and is never allowed a moment's respite from all the pointless cruelties and horrors ❓❓❓❓❓❓❓

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i used to understand summer preferrers i used to see where they were coming from but frankly in 2026 its just an inexcusable position to hold. you think any of this is okay? you sicko?

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“Chewbacca is… a Maoist. Hera Syndulla? A Trotskyist. Ahsoka Tano? A Social Democrat. Ezra Bridger? A Posadist. Lost! All of them, lost. I am the only one with clarity of purpose.”