Apr 13
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Slowly and meticulously crafted
Is the mask that I wear
High and strong
Is the wall that I’ve built
I rarely let them down
I don’t let people see
I hide what’s on the inside
Only letting the outside show
Day 7 of Tarot Mentors I believe the cards are trying to bestow upon me that lesson of balance between opening up and hiding myself away. I tend to keep everything bottled up, and "protect myself" and ultimately I know that usually that isn't the best thing to do..
I am beginning to believe that what I need is reciprocation. Specifically, reciprocation of my love.
When it comes to meeting new people, I have a talent of getting to know their real personalities. Not in a sense of their superficial-selves, but their core personalities. And regardless that man was born of sin, everyone is a good person. Evidently, everyone has a contorted view of good. That is the reason why, even if everyone hates them, I see the best in anyone.
Why is this important to mention?
Well, you see, I'm really empathetic. People will show me who they are before they know themselves. And any actions done, good or bad, can not change my perspective of them.
But what I need is someone to love me like the way that I have loved.
It feels like it's already too late to feel that. It'll never happen and I've come to terms with that.
And I am married.
If ever someone learns to recognize me and looks me in the eyes and tells me that they "see" me. Then maybe I can experience the happiness I've been looking for. But as a married person, I have to be satisfied with the love that I earned.
What do I say
When the words won’t come
How do I express
Everything going on
Why can’t I
Show you the true me
Can you tell me why people go to such lengths to hide their real selves? Or why I always behave very differently when I'm in the company of others? Why do people have so little trust in one another? I know there must be a reason, but sometimes I think it's horrible that you can't ever confide in anyone, not even those closest to you.
The Diary of a Young Girl, Anne Frank
Seriously tempted to change practically everything on my YouTube account and do something (idk what yet) so that even in my videos nobody will ever know who I am. And by nobody I mean not even my friends - only the people I tell.