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[ateez-himari]

GOLDEN HOUR : PART 3 ; TRACKLIST

. . 'In Your Fantasy' Edition

Solo Track ;

I Don't Understand [ 3:29 ] ; Throughout the maknae's life, there were never moments where loving someone came without complications and perhaps the hardest to overcome has been attempting to unite separate worlds - one where sound serves as a trusted guide, versus one where silence is the only time words can be heard. Within this track the vulnerabilities kept secret were exposed for everyone to see - listeners bearing witness to the countless times she tried reaching the realm where everyone else communicates through noise rather than actions, loving so closely yet kept distant by the space between their languages.

. . Even though I don't understand, I can know you

Album Credits ;

LEMON DROP ; Lyrics (3rd), Composition & Arrangement (4th)

Original second place composition credits were altered (lowered)

MASTERPIECE ; Lyrics (2nd), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

NOW THIS HOUSE AIN'T A HOME ; Lyrics (6th), Composition & Arrangement (N/A)

Withdrew following artistic differences with Edenary team (no freedom due to strict guidelines and little inclusion)

CASTLE ; Lyrics (2nd), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

BRIDGE : THE EDGE OF REALITY ; Lyrics (N/A), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

IN YOUR FANTASY (title) ; Lyrics (2nd), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

SKIN (Seonghwa) ; Lyrics (1st), Composition & Arrangement (1st)

SLIDE TO ME (Yunho) ; Lyrics (1st), Composition & Arrangement (1st)

LEGACY (Yeosang) ; Lyrics (3rd), Composition & Arrangement (6th)

Had to withdraw mid-way due to severe health issues

CREEP (San) ; Lyrics (1st), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

ROAR (Mingi) ; Lyrics (N/A), Composition & Arrangement (N/A)

Forcibly withdrew due to her fiancé's concerns towards active workload at the time

SAGITTARIUS (Wooyoung) ; Lyrics (2nd), Composition & Arrangement (2nd)

TO BE YOUR LIGHT (Jongho) ; Lyrics (N/A), Composition & Arrangement (N/A)

Rights to pre-produced work were handed to the working team due to hearing complications (ghostwritten)

Total KOMCA credits including album ; 260

'I Don't Understand' Spoilers ;

@/min.himeee on Instagram (stories)

"Sannie oppa said we would show more maturity during this tour, which is true, but it's not always in the sense that you may interpret it initially. With 'I Don't Understand' what's being shown is an understanding that at times my world strays from people that can hear, it's more distant, so I can't love the way they do, I can't speak how they do, and maturing is finding ways to crack that barrier even just a little, to get through to them without forcing myself to use sound that isolates me. Back then I would throw up in the bathroom every single day because I wanted to be 'normal', I was scared to stray away from the members...so I forced myself to listen, to make noise, and it hurt me, but I was happy as long as we could communicate. Now I've come to the realization that maybe being silent isn't so bad, and even though my fiancé and I are still figuring it out, I feel like I've reached far enough into their world."

Taglist ; @prbywoo , @marissa-11 , @angie-x3

[ateez-himari]

Hii have you seen In Your Fantasy? If you have, what would Hima's concept be? I'm really curious :)

Hii, I watched it the moment the music video was released - because no one needs sleep when ATEEZ is having a comeback, especially not with those delicious previews. This might honestly be my second favorite ATEEZ title track (no one will ever dethrone my queen Halazia in my heart)

Himari's concept would lean into the reputation built by her stage presence ; despite the fact that she looks and acts like an angel, she never fails to seduce those who view their performances, which gives her this demonically deceitful persona. There hasn't been much time to flesh this out so excuse the messy explanation but here are some things that would happen in the music video :

. . A mirror reflecting the maknae with black wings from which feathers are slowly falling to lean into the 'fallen angel' concept. When looking closer, viewers would be able to see her pupils turning blood red just as she smiled

. . Hima walking through the room with those wings dragging across the carpet behind her as red wine meant to represent blood trickles down through the feathers to form a trail. [ To mimic what would happen if wings were ripped from an angel, blood would run down from where their wings were attached ]

. . The vocalist chained down on stage whilst kneeling in red feathers as masked figured approached to examine her like some kind of caged animal ; arms suspended by chains wrapped around both wrist tied to the ceiling, another wrapped around her neck and two wrapped around her bare ankles

. . Hima seducing numerous individuals while stealing what looked to be fragments of the red cube later held by Wooyoung before pulling a man down with a finger hooked under his tie while mouthing the lyrics 'I'm getting in your head' [ smiling to expose her canines as her irises and accident scars both glowed red ]

. . [ Group ] She also had partnered choreography with every single member to truly emphasize this 'temptress' concept

That's all my brain can come up with at the moment so hopefully you enjoy! I'll try to make an MV shoot drabble (kind of like the CK shoot) to go more in depth!

Taglist ; @prbywoo , @marissa-11 , @angie-x3

[ateez-himari]

HEAR ME OUT!!!!!!WHAT IFFF HIMA AND MINGI ARE TOTAL OPPOSITES IN THIS CB?LIKE SHE'S HIS HEAT AND HE'S HER THIRST???

STOP THIS IS GENIUS OH MY GOD, YOU'RE A GENIUS, I LOVE YOUR SEXY BRAIN! I GET IT BECAUSE LIKE HE'S PRACTICALLY THE AIR SHE BREATHES AND EVERY TIME THIS MAN LAYS HIS EYES ON HER HE'S IN HEA-*PG 13*

Also I'm still working on your ask and for the second question (I think it's the second, maybe first) I was literally gonna say she was 'Heat'...why are you always in my brain?? I have to start putting a password on it or something-. SECOND ALSO I MISSED YOU SO MUCH MY SWEET OMG 😩💕🎀 I literally got a burst of energy out of nowhere after seeing your message, I HOPE YOU'RE DOING GOOD AND STAYING SAFE BOOBOO, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND YOUR ASK SHOULD BE UP BY THE END OF THE DAY 🥰🩷

[ateez-himari]

Hello! I know you’re taking a short break so the response doesn’t have to be very detailed if you don’t want for it to be! I hope you are able to move safely and without any trouble! I was just wondering if any of Himari’s idol friends went to see the In Your Fantasy concert and what their thoughts were on it? I saw Ateez perform in Atlanta Thursday and it was fantastic! Looking forward to all of your future content and I hope your move goes as planned🫶

Hiii, sorry this took so long but I think I'm physically unable to write down my ideas simply when you guys make me think of things- The move was very tiring especially because I had to move boxes in this heat with my tiny twig muscles, but otherwise I'm getting settled in pretty quickly, thank you 🫶

Taemin ; The maknae's mentor constantly shows up for his protégé no matter what so it came as no surprise that he was in attendance, filming nearly every one of her solo parts to post on his social media accounts later that night. Respecting their own personal tradition, he showed up backstage with flowers and rambled on about just how incredibly confident she had become in more sensual dancing styles (though ignoring that it was thanks to his mentoring). PROUD DAD!

Hanzo & Yoongi ; Despite the vocalist warning her older brothers that the performances were going to be much more sensual than the previous tour they still insisted on coming to support their baby, and they were immersed until the 'Blind' lap dance that she forgot to tone down-. Neither of them truly knew whether they should be crying or covering their eyes during her 'I Don't Understand' performance so all the men did was sit there awkwardly next to each other - though they cheered the loudest out of anyone in the venue when it was over. It was most definitely a roller coaster for the brothers as one second they were fawning over her incredible performance skills, and the next they were covering their mouths in shock as she danced suggestively with the members, especially her fiancé.

The young woman had not seen her biological brother in some time due to his residence abroad, so the siblings were nearly inseparable even when the staff was attempting to tell their maknae she needed to take her makeup off. It was the same situation with Yoongi as they had not seen one another since his discharge, so she sat between her brothers on the couch, holding both of their hands as she rambled on about little details from the concert.

BTS ; It was inevitable that they would be present since they were disappointed at just how much they missed during their service, and they truly gave their all to supporting the group's official little sister, several videos catching them screaming louder than fans whenever she demonstrated more mature moves. The members purchased the maknae's basketball jersey in advance along with her light stick cover to truly deck themselves out in 'Himari', even bringing along signs that they took time to bedazzle so they would truly stand out on camera - warning the venue staff in advance so their hard work could be filmed. J-Hope and Himari had very suggestive partner work not too long ago so the younger members took the opportunity to tease them while on the big screen, recreating the stage that had shocked many - though quickly regretting it when she began dancing that very part to tease them back.

Seungcheol, Soonyoung, Jihoon, Minghao, Mingyu & Chan [ SVT ] ; They each had separate reasons to attend but in the end they truly enjoy watching the vocalist in her element and missed seeing that raw passion stand out under the lights. Attempts were made to dissuade Mingyu in light of the young woman's somewhat recent engagement announcement but he would not budge, though the way his fist clenched around the light stick during partner work with her fiancé was very obvious even from afar. Overall however they visibly enjoyed the concert, though going completely still in surprise during the first few suggestive choreographies as no one had given them prior warnings concerning the contents of this concert

ENHYPEN ; The main reason behind their attendance was to support their producer and some members even brought handmade signs with cute messages that were later shown on the large screen - to which she responded by signing 'love you' and blowing them kisses. When ATEEZ performs on public platforms such as award shows, they tend to be much more tame so the artists were surprised when witnessing that side of Himari in person. Heesung later went live to tell fans about the concert, encouraging them to purchase tickets, placing a heavy focus on his friend's ability to command the stage with one simple gaze.

BOYNEXTDOOR & Zico ; The boys were originally supposed to attend by themselves as no one knew that other members were also planning on purchasing tickets to the tour, and when the topic casually came up they decided to sit together. Riwoo was the one who came up with the brilliant idea of dragging their CEO to the concert by saying that it was a way to thank their producer, so after an hour of begging he caved in.

XIKERS ; Poor babies had no idea what was coming once those red lights turned on and to say they were flustered when she sat down on her fiancées lap would be an understatement (Yechan tried to cover Sumin's eyes). They were used to the other aspects of choreography since they had gotten used to sitting down in the studio as their seniors practiced so they could see what polished idols' performance looked like but they had never truly witnessed Himari's stage persona in action. Some of them left confused as to whether MinAri were truly engaged as her flirtatious nature under the lights was seducing almost everyone, including her own members during partnered work.

That's the main list! There were a few more idols in attendance but these were the main ones that were noticed by fans! Also I'm glad you had fun! I'm actually going to see them in Arlington on August 16th so I'm sooooo excited 🤭 I still have to pick out my outfit though (of course Mingi themed). I did a 'Rocky' themed outfit for my first concert last year so now I just have to choose the era! I don't think I'll do 'In Your Fantasy' or 'Lemon Drop', maybe 'Halazia' since it was my favorite comeback

[ateez-himari]

HI BB!!!! I've been in your inbox quite a lot lately😭😭 I just love you and Mimi so much so I always have to pop in here. First of all I hope you're doing good,and hopefully moving is going well!! I had my second gift!! It's also an edit(that's the only thing I can do) butttt it's for Mimi and yoongi's background (?) the clips don't make sense together and all of the Le sserafim members are in the video because there weren't good clips for chaewon 😭😭 so it's really bad but I hope you like it because It was made with their(Mimi's)childhood in mind! Here it is

Please take care and stay hydrated and try to get some rest when you can!!love you sm💕💕

Hi my sweet! l always love seeing you in my inbox!! Moving is going well so far, it was just hard getting boxes up into the house in that heat, I was SWEATING 😭This is one of the most beautiful edits I've ever seen, thank you so so so much, my sweet 🥹 Unfortunately I don't have much to return the favor with but I can give you my take on this edit ;

I've actually tied 'Fake Love' to them since creating their relationship because most of the lyrics are the speaker expressing just how much they would give up simply out of love for the other person - though they might not be loved back. Yoongi did everything the track talks about ; tried to hide his true emotions no matter how negative they might have been, found strength in the darkest places just to keep her happy, lied countless times to shield her from the world, and made flowers bloom in places that were in truth filled with thorns. In the end though he still couldn't hide his 'weaknesses' because she always found him during his darkest hours, it was always that wide eyed little girl that called out his name

Himari was Yoongi's first love. The maknae was no more than a newborn when they met for the first time and although the rapper hesitated when her biological brother asked if he wanted to hold the babbling baby, the moment her tiny finger wrapped around his own he felt something in his chest. No one truly knew why, even to this day, but he began crying as his arms wrapped tightly around her.

Despite not being related in any sense to the girl, he began taking on the role of older brother ; glaring at anyone that so much as cooed at her, holding hands in public while Hanzo held on to the other, teaching her how to play basketball before she could develop motor skills, etc. Then she became his responsibility, his to raise, and although he would never express this, it was one of the hardest things he had to do. He was in the midst of building an entire group's career from the ground up, he was in the darkest instances of his life, and yet he had this bright eyed little girl waiting for him at home as though he was her father. He was 19 and convinced that he would die for her, but in the end he did something much harder : forced himself to live for her.

I hope you enjoyed my little brain vomit and again I LOVED this edit, thank you!! I've never been more hydrated in my life don't worry and I'll take all the time to rest that I want after yesterday's hard exercise. I love you sm more, MWAHHHH 💕

A/N ; To the other Anon, I have your ask in the work don't worry!

[ateez-himari]

Hi! How are you? I was wondering did Himari attended Suga older brother’s wedding since there were pictures of him attending his older brother’s wedding? If she did attend, would she say a speech to Suga’s older brother?

Hi! I'm doing very well thank you!

Geum Jae is Hima's eldest brother so she made sure to clear any schedules on that day so she could attend even though the two never managed to become as close as she is with her other siblings. The speech would be something like this ;

"Oppa, there were many nights during which you stayed with me to talk about my uncertain future, reassuring me that everything would be alright, that you would always be by my side, and I'm beyond honored to stand here today to witness your own future unfolding. You've loved me since the day I came into this world, with an affection so pure, so warm, that I can say with certainty has become a blessing to everyone in your life. I wish the two of you nothing but happiness, peace, and endless love. Unnie [wife], thank you for coming into this family with open arms and I look forward to creating more memories with you as my sister. Oppa, thank you for nurturing me with such kindness throughout the years, you were truly my unyielding source of warmth through this world."

This is definitely not what was said word for word since I'm writing this trying to get over writer's block for a drabble, but it centered around the main ideas!

[ateez-himari]

hii not sure if you’ve answered this before but is there a specific reason as to why hima doesn’t want to be credited on certain songs?

Hi! I haven't, actually, but that's a good question!

Certain tracks that Hima produces for outside artists perform better than ATEEZ's so by not putting her name down in the credits, she avoids any speculations or nasty rumors about purposefully sabotaging the group or not putting enough effort into their discography. There are certain instances where when she's writing for people like BTS members - people that she knows through others or that have close ties to her - she'll only take credit for the title track and exclude any b-side that she worked on. That's because she deems that the only reason she had those opportunities were through privilege / someone else, so while she does recognize they turned to her for her skills more than anything else, she also doesn't want to feel like she's just doing this to get more songs under her belt. In the end it all comes down to passion ; music production is the center of her life and so everything she does relating to it is out of pure desire, not need for money or recognition, so she doesn't mind letting a few songs slip by without her credit. Her name is technically still in there but under 'Seraphina', the English name given to her by the members, and since there are no links to a profile no one really knows who it is.

[ateez-himari]

Would Himari appear in any of the BTS documentaries? If so, what kind of moments would she have with them?

Hima is a really big part of their lives (ex. Jungkook's relationship with her means so much that they got matching tattoos) so she appeared in most of them so far!

[Hope On The Street]; Himari appeared around the last episode as J-Hope talked about going from learning dance to teaching it, with the producers using old footage of her dancing to the group's songs during their practices. Several new ones were also used where she was learning how to create choreography from J-Hope

[Beyond The Star]; There were very few moments where she appeared for more than a few seconds in this documentary, but when she did it was mainly her supporting the group during their concerts and even behind the scenes. Some clips of her sitting in their old practice room during their debut days and dancing with them were also inserted (though not much since in a few of them she still had unhealed injuries from the accident)

[Road to D-Day]; Most parts involving the vocalist in this documentary were facetime calls, as her schedule prevented her from travelling with Yoongi. The only overseas content that fans saw with the two of them was when he went to Tokyo to meet Ryuichi Sakamoto, where she translated the conversation for both of them and later played a cover of 'Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence'. When Yoongi came back to Korea to write his album, the first thing he did was visit his sister and there were short clips of them talking about music, his sound, the lyrics, etc., but he refused to have cameras film them talking about 'Amygdala'

[Jimin's Production Diary]; Since Himari produced some songs on the album 'FACE' she was seen quite a bit in this documentary, though the interactions between them were a lot more professional than they usually would be. However, there were also moments of the two relaxing at his house after work, singing karaoke and even hanging out with some staff and group members

[Agust D D-Day]; The performance of their single 'Pray' was included in the movie as well as never before seen footage of his final concert - showing the maknae waiting with an outstretched hand as her older brother finally closed the door to the stage. Yoongi took her hand and immediately pulled her in for a tight hug, nearly breaking down into tears

[I Am Still]; Hima played an important role in the making of 'Golden' so much of the behind the scenes work but there was also much footage of them playing around during their free time, walking around cities, their time at the hotel, etc., (it's where their tattoo was revealed). She also came to visit him on the set of '3D' where she chastised him for not wearing a shirt, they shared some of his food, she cheered him on behind the scenes and they filmed some parts together just for fun (that didn't make it into the MV but made it into the documentary)

[Right People, Wrong Place]; Not much of her was seen in this documentary but RM did include footage of them spending quality time together - going to book stores, having discussions about books, life, music, etc., hiking and cafe hopping together. Hima also brought him homemade treats several times, not knowing he was filming (but he kept the clips in anyway)