in honor of the last chapter of Redolent of You, i cleaned up an old sketch i did of Anakin as he appears in the beloved fic by the one n only @himboskywalker
Re-posting this reblog of X separately because it deserves more eyes lol (and hopefully someone to someday write it properlyyy) 👀
After reading himboskywalker‘s masterpiece Let me be that I am I’m now thinking of fitting my high stakes, ansgty mpreg Vaderwan reunion ✨imagine✨ into their universe somehow (with some huge liberties & way less professionalism oops) ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
E.g.,
Omega Anakin and and Alfa Obiwan are partnered and very much in love, and Anakin has recently begun having heats again - although he knows he cannot conceive (due to damage from his suppressor implant).
However political tensions are brewing and Palpatine is quickly working on brainwashing Anakin to turn to the dark side, fostering deep mistrust between him and Obiwan. This even includes convincing him that Obiwan is repulsed by him because he cannot provide children & is having affairs with other Omegas.
Anakin and Obiwan become estranged as Anakin pledges himself to the Sith, and Palpatine knights him Darth Vader.
Then this happens (thanks to Wikipedia): Vader assassinates the Separatist leaders on Mustafar, while Palpatine/Sidious declares himself Emperor before the Galactic Senate, transforming the Republic into the Galactic Empire, and denounces the Jedi as traitors.
NOTE: Vadar doesn’t kill any younglings in this universe, but he does become completely ruthless and unbeatable in battle, and is very mean and nasty to everyone 🤫
The Jedi flee and Vadar stays in the city, at the full height of his Sith powers. However, he’s not sure if this feeling he has of being physically out of balance is part of the dark side, or something else. His last heat took place about 2 months ago - things were not good between him & Obiwan, but they still had sex (it’s fairly unavoidable for a mated pair during heat).
He is checked over by the Empire’s healers and discovered to be pregnant, with twins 🥺 His Omega hormones try their hardest to pull through, urging him to find his Alfa. Sidious works extra hard to convince Vadar that Obiwan must have known he was pregnant and had purposefully abandoned him and the babies since he was dissatisfied with him. The deep sadness fuels his Sith power so Sidious continues to feed him lies.
During Vadar’s pregnancy Sidious continues to train him in harnessing the dark side, encouraging him to be more ruthless and brutal. He attends Empire events and even various missions/battles into his second trimester, but eventually Sidious enforces that he rest & gather strength on world. Sidious is secretly holding out hope that he will be able to create even more powerful Sith leaders in Vadar’s children. He is also wary of the Jedi finding out about the pregnancy and using this against them.
During this time, the exiled Jedi are engaged in various battles across the growing Empire, but hope is waining as they are so greatly outnumbered. Obiwan (who does not know that Vadar is pregnant with his children) has been desperately pushing for a mission to rescue Vadar since they fled, but news of his Sith brutality in battle has spread, and it is decided by the majority that he is too dangerous and a lost cause - not that this stops Obiwan fighting for it.
At the beginning of his third trimester, seeing that Vadar’s omega hormones are reaching their peak, Sidious attempts to break any remaining bond between him and Obiwan, and tells him the lie that Obiwan was killed in battle. He also hopes that more pain will fuel his power. Vadar is secretly devastated, despite having already believed Obiwan had abandoned him. Sidious is pleased to see that he becomes even more powerful in the dark side than he even thought possible. He is now just hoping that the birth will be as smooth and confidential as possible.
HOWEVER, during an intel mission to the Empire base, a Jedi crew (not including Obiwan) cross paths with Vadar (who is full term) and are shocked to see that he’s pregnant. They manage to capture him somehow (???????) and bring him back to the Jedi base.
NOTE: I have no ideas around how this capture goes. This part of the imagine is V hazy. Vadar would have to be asleep or compromised in some way to be able to be captured. But not in labour yet. 🤔
Vadar in just in his robes as he was not prepared for battle. He attempts to cover his bump as much as possible - although it’s twins he carries fairly small, so it’s more or less the same size as a full-term single pregnancy bump. His eyes glow red with fury at the Jedi who’ve taken him- that he believes betrayed the Empire and abandoned him (plus allowed Obiwan to die in battle!). However, the stress of being captured has caused his body to go into labour, and he must harness the force to conceal the growing pain.
They manage to lock him in a cell, cuffing his hands with powerful restraints and locking one ankle to the floor.
NOTE: There needs to be something here that raises the stakes - i.e., Vadar grabs one of the Jedi using the force, and threatens to kill them if they don’t let him go. OR! They find out that there is an attack planned somewhere at a particular time, but they don’t know where so they can’t prepare for it. Vadar knows but he won’t tell them. And their family/friends are all in mortal danger etc, or something like that... or maybe it doesn’t need it, I dunno...
Vadar has been in his cell for several hours now and his labour is starting to progress quite quickly. He’s less and less able to conceal the pain and when Jedi come in to try different interrogation methods, they realise what’s happening.
Obiwan has been off-base doing something something… another mission with other resisters. But as soon as Vadar is captured one of Obiwan’s most trusted fellow Jedi sends him an urgent transmission. They don’t mention the pregnancy as they think this news is best delivered in person.
Obiwan arrives back and rushes to the base, where the counsel of exiled Jedi leaders are frantically trying to work out what to do. He doesn’t know where Vadar is being held otherwise he would have headed straight there. Every Alfa cell in his body is screaming at him to go to his mate, despite the horrible events that have happened since they parted, and despite not knowing of his condition.
Eventually someone realises Obiwan doesn’t know yet, and tries to deliver the news as calmly as possible - that Vadar appears to be very pregnant and currently in labour in his cell (and he is the only hope they have to defuse an attack being planned on the Jedi - tbc, stakes…)
Obiwan explodes and insists to be let in. They all discourage this saying Vadar is too dangerous and he will probably kill him on sight, he isn’t responding to any reasoning, or letting anyone get near him (including medics). He’s already injured multiple people by slamming them against the wall or chocking them with the force just for stepping in. Obiwan will not back down, he demands to go in and says he will cop whatever consequences result - that if Vadar isn’t responding to anything else, Obiwan is their only hope (haha). They finally concede, and take him to Vadar’s cell.
Some other Jedi are in their trying in vein to question Vadar, and dodging his force attacks - when Obiwan enters. They do not see him clearly and the tussling continues until Obiwan cuts through with a very clear “Anakin”.
Vadar freezes, breathless. The other’s aren’t sure what to do. Obiwan tells them to take off his hand and leg cuffs. They object and try to explain what they’ve been doing and how dangerous Vadar is but Obiwan booms “Off!” So they comply. “Out. Everyone. Now!” He says, and the officers rush out, leaving the two alone.
Now, my ideas for this section are:
- Vadar is sitting on a bench in the cell - like Grogu’s bench (even tho that’s an empire bench I guess), and has his robes wrapped around him with his hood on.
- Internally, Vadar wants to drop everything and throw himself at Obiwan, but the brainwashing by Sidious has been so thorough that he puts on a cold front. He cruelly taunts Obiwan, and when Obiwan replies with nothing but truth, concern and apologies, he starts accusing him of lying and abandoning him. In the midst of this he has several very strong contractions which halt proceedings and make Obiwan extremely worried. However Vadar won’t accept medical attention from the Jedi as he suspects they will use it as a chance to attack him.
- Vadar’s scent is sweet and intoxicating with young pregnant Omega, but with overpoweringly strong notes of pain and distress - from both his physical pain and the pain of the dark side. The result is like a dagger twisting in Obiwan’s chest.
- Obiwan begins to realise the extent of Sidious’ brainwashing. He explains that he never meant to abandon him - cheated with anyone, he has never wanted to be with any other Omega but him, and if that meant not having children he was completely happy to accept that. The closer Obiwan approaches the stronger his protective Alfa scent is to Vadar. Obiwan begins to make progress.
- Vadar says Obiwan must have been glad to be rid of him since he never tried to come back once the Jedi fled. Obiwan explains he has tried every single day to launch a rescue mission, but the majority wouldn’t support due to Vadar’s power. He is deeply ashamed he wasn’t able to rescue him, and his voice becomes an alfa growl as he apologises for not finding a way to go alone. He says he too was a victim of Sidious’ brainwashing, in that he thought Vadar didn’t want to be mates to him anymore - and that he was more interested in learning the ways of the dark side. Vadar denies that this was the case, but he is becoming more and more at the whim of his Omega biology. He has a huge contraction and almost falls apart. Obiwan wants to support him but still isn’t sure he has regained his trust, and uses all his restraint to stay at a respectful distance whilst Vadar groans and writhes under the pain. The omega distress scent filling the room is making this almost impossible.
- Obiwan kneels down and becomes tender - continuing to use the name Anakin, and summons all his Alfa abilities to assure him. He tells Anakin that he is his one and only mate. He married him, he marked him with his bite, he vowed to protect him forever - and nothing could change this. Anakin could kill him now and he’d die happy having been his Alfa. (Or something like this).
- The redness starts to fade slightly from Anakin’s eyes. He is overwhelmed by the instinctual omega urge to submit and accept his mate - and exhausted from labour. He finally reveals to Obiwan that Sidious said he’s been killed. Obiwan is disgusted. He asks when? Anakin says only a couple of months ago, that up until then he had been secretly hoping every day that Obiwan would return to him, but once Sidious said that, that part of him died forever.
- Obiwan is silent with fury. He collects himself as Anakin has another contraction, he is moaning openly now and shifting like he almost needs to start pushing. Obikin has initially wanted to believe it was his child, but then told himself it mustn’t be. He reasons it’s likely the work of Sidious organising for Anakin to be bred & create more Sith to further the chosen one lineage. He must have put Anakin through some terrible breading process to this end, as they both knew Anakin had such a small chance of conceiving after his suppressant implant.
- “You may have to allow the medics to help you very soon” suggests Obiwan gently, daring to place his hand on Anakin’s belly wrapped up protectively in robes. As though reading his thoughts (which he may well be doing), Anakin places his hand over Obiwan’s and tells him “they’re yours”. Under his hood his tired eyes lock with Obiwan’s, they’re not almost completely blue again. Obiwan is floored, he finally loses his composure and makes a sound that he didn’t know he could make. Then he realises - “they?”. “It’s twins” says Anakin, almost at a whisper.
- Obiwan can no longer hold his Alfa urges at bay, he lets out a cry and envelopes Anakin in a desperate embrace that goes no way close to expressing the joy and amazement he feels, paired with shame and regret in learning this news so late. Had he known Anakin was pregnant (with their children!) he would have flown into the empire base himself and single-handedly rescued him. Anakin clings to Obiwan in response, his breath rapid and raspy, and after a moment Obiwan feels the rhythm of his crying. “Anakin, I’m so sorry - I don’t deserve you” Obiwan can only repeat. They are a tangle of limbs and emotions on the cell bench. He pulls back slightly to removed Anakin’s hood. His brow is drenched with sweat from the pain. Obiwan brushes the tears that streak from his blue eyes.
- Suddenly Anakin’s expression changes, and another moment later he’s buckled over clutching his stomach, crying out in agony as another contraction takes hold. This is the worst one Obiwan has seen - he holds onto Anakin’s hand (which Anakin returns with a bone bracing grip), but he feels utterly useless to offer any assistance. There is a very sharp, sweet note of anise in Anakin’s omega scent, which Obiwan understands meant imminent birth.
- “I think we should bring in the medics” he tells Anakin, trying to remain as calm as possible. Anakin looks at him helplessly “you promise they won’t attack me?”. Obiwan wants to cry at how strong Anakin’s protective instincts are despite everything he’s been through. He gathers all the Alfa strength he can; “I give you my word as your Alfa. I will make sure no-one harms you or our children”. He holds Anakin’s eyes, and he finally concedes.
...More to come...(but I need to go to the shops!)...!
this is dedicated to @himboskywalker for continuing these discussions <3
update: the term i was looking for is not “female-coded” (which is used more in queer circles). instead, anakin defies traditional Western gender roles for masculine people, and identifies more with Western feminine gender roles. the more you know! 👍
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I'm on my phone in class and a friend asks me what I'm doing? Oh, I'm writing poetry to send to one of my favourite fanfic authors to show my appreciation for them and their fics. Or my sister asks me why I'm typing so fast? I'm anonymously sending my thanks to an author that wrote an a/b/o star wars fic that was really profound and that really got me through a dark time (@himboskywalker this is not targeted, but it slightly is)
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Going to Pieces on You, dedicated to Himboskywalker’s Conceal Me What I Am cause that’s a really good fic and I was feeling burst of inspiration after reading the fifth chapter @himboskywalker
You definitely aren't alone in thinking that photo reminded you of himboskywalker. Becuae that's immediately were my brain went as well. Though currently, I'm imagining Anakin in CMWIA, wearing it when he's pregnant with the twins, at some Senatorial gathering Obi-wan just has to attend, & Padme steals Anakin away to dress him as a surprise for Obi-wan.
Yes!!! That is exactly the Vibe™ that I got from that too, and you are a genius re: context haha it would be an absolutely marvelous pregnancy outfit 😂 I don’t even like pregnancy but for @himboskywalker nothing is impossible apparently haha
