(neck) - sender grabs the back of reciever's neck (I noticed Ichigo in the muse list! This is from Shinji! Also Hollow Purple (but it's in Zander Small's voice))
rough handling meme. // accepting.
the heat of battle . . . even if it is just training, neither the blood racing through his veins nor the heavy weight of the pull of air into his lungs lie. the layer of sweat covering his skin and the electric feeling of excitation permeating bone-deep tell the story. it is never just sparring with shinji. the heights for which they aim allow for nothing less than the very best of what they both have to offer -- no longer mere sparring, but putting their lives on the line in pursuit of strength.
with each clash of their blades, each clash of their spiritual pressures, ichigo can feel it -- the desperation linking the two of them together in battle. the desperation of shinji to stand up to the coming threat . . . the desperation of ichigo to be strong enough to protect the people most important to him. every time that mask breaks, that desperation crests.
not yet. i'm not strong enough yet.
hiyori has told him, time and again -- he must master the skill of transitioning when he runs out of time with the mask. each time it crumbles away, he is left wide open. not for more than a moment or two, but enough for a strong opponent to manipulate . . . and more than enough for shinji.
the fragments of his shattered mask barely have time to fade to dust before shinji capitalizes on the opportunity before him. in the brief moment after the crumbling of his mask, before ichigo has the chance to get his bearings again, shinji has parried his sword aside and closed in. his eyes can barely follow him as he maneuvers behind him in a flash, and before he can even react, shinji has his neck in a hold. it is a very vulnerable position . . . if this were truly an enemy . . . i'd be dead right now.
i lost. the thought sits in his head, but in a real crisis like this, there is no concession. there is only victory or death.
❝ i'm not done yet . . . ! ❞ he tightens his grip on the hilt of his sword and spins, aiming the blade so as to slash shinji's arms -- or, more accurately, to get him to let go, so he can recover some ground between them.