"I haven't only done good in my life either." ( @hlmwood )
It seems a rather unusual situation, to be sharing a conversation regarding morality with Arthur Holmwood – Mina cannot quite recall how it began, who veered the topic towards such directions; however, they soon find themselves discussing their wrongdoings. Oh, men will think someone like Mina, sweet, good, level - headed Mina cannot possibly have done wrong in her life. Men often think women to be either saints or devils, with no in between. Mina deems it foolish and offensive, and yet, with Mr. Holmwood, that does not seem to be quite the case – he seems to have adapted his way of thinking after having shared time with her over the weeks. He seems to have understood that she is not a frail parchment of paper that can give in at any time.
She takes comfort, that, at least tonight, they can speak as equals from both sides.
And so, Mina listens to his rambles, he listens to hers, and the night goes on, sitting both in Van Hellsing’s study researching – Mina does not think she can ever sleep again soundly until the forsaken curse has been lifted from her body. Upon closing her eyes, the whispers increase, become all too audible, almost screaming into her ear for her to bare her succumb to the Count’s desires. Mina refuses to succumb to the will of any man, no matter their nature.
“ I believe we would not be humans if that had been the case, Mr. Holmwood, ” she nods her head, offers a small attempt at a smile. Fingers grow bony and all too pale, she notices her cheeks have lost their rosy tint too – oh, Lucy would have pinched her own face incessantly in order for the color to return. Mina cannot be bothered with pretending any longer, “ I don’t think anyone can say they have done only good. however, I believe it is easier to be accepted when it comes from men – I don’t know if you lot think us women to be incapable of making mistakes, or you simply are not willing to accept when we do. ” a small scoffing chuckle, Mina shakes her head, slowly, “ in any case, Mr. Holmwood, you needn’t worry about your morality just because you have done some questionable things. Lucy was … she was intelligent. she knew how to distinguish a good man, and she would have not let you pursue her had she seen something unforgivable in you. ”
