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My sister pulled me out of bed for our workout today. I was dragging kind of binged on a few episodes of "How to Get Away with Murder" and didn't notice it was 5 am which is when I decided to head to bed. Glad I made myself go because going after a 10 hour shift is not fun lol. I had a banana before my workout and took a water bottle with me. Did about 40 minutes at the gym. I was crunched on time so it was one of those quick workouts. Had well having overnight oats before work. Pretty simple recipe. Just had 1 cup of almond milk, 1 serving of oats, 1/2 of a banana, and 1/2 a serving of PB2. Hopefully work is a breeze. XOX Cilla

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I know this is like my third post today but....I forgot to update for you guys and for the sake of keeping track of my progress here's just one more entry. I am now 206.5 pounds. The job I was promoted to is a little more physical so I still seem to be dropping weight even though i haven't been to the gym in a couple of months. I am now a size 16! Eeeekk! So excited. I've been wearing size 18s. Those pants pictured are Old Navy and I bought them on sale a few months back. They didn't quite fit comfortably, but figured in due time. And it happened they now fit! 😄 And yes I am in the Old Navy dressing room. I had tried these pixie pants before snapping the outfit I wore to go shopping. Those pants are not for me. Too short for pixie pants. I cannot wait to reach the 100s! Working for it! XOX Cilla

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Hello Gym! 💪😍

It's been a little over a month that I haven't gone to the gym. I know...shame on me! I just had a lot going on. It was a mixture of starting a new relationship which is now over, work, overdoing it in the gym, and getting bronchitis. I never thought overdoing it in the gym could be bad, but I suppose overworking one's self is bad. I went every day for a little over a month. No breaks and I started upping how long I'd stay at the gym even if I was tired from work. And one obstacle I have yet to overcome is gyming it while I'm on my period. It's exhausting. I tried. But anyway went today with my sister. I'll admit I missed it. Going to try making it consistent again. Also trying to eat better. Wish me luck! XOX Cilla

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Workout out from last week! (Didn't get a chance to post these.)

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Going in to week 2!

I know I look a mess. My sweater was a wide neck and when I leaned in for the picture well kind of showed too much. Lol. Anyway I've gone to the gym every day since I've started. It's been and exhausting week for sure. Balancing work, my bad sleep, and finding time for the gym well it's been tough. I have been eating better. I would write more, but I'm beat.

Cilla

07/14/2015

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4th day @ the gym! #selfie

So today I went to the gym yet again by myself. Like I wanted to go, but sometimes well a lot of times it sucks to go by yourself. I enjoy gym company. Omg -- and I took the stairs after work. This was before I went to the gym. I almost died lol. Going all the way to the garage on the 5th floor where I parked sucked. I am so out of shape. :D I almost heaved a lung! Anyway the gym was actually cool today. Not too packed and the dude at the front desk was super nice. He actually legit asked how I was doing and everything. I'm awkward with that stuff especially the path to actually get the gym equipment. Huge front desk along with a long and large path -- not my thing. Sorry got a little off track. I did some cardio on the treadmill for 30 minutes then did some ab and leg stuff. I'm tired lol and I'm sure I could have done more. Maybe next time. I plan to go in the am though.

I made an egg white sandwich after the gym not sure if that's okay since it was after 12am. Wheat, swish cheese, spinach, avocado, and egg whites. I just hadn't had a good lunch. The line was too long at work. Had salad with Italian dressing, cottage cheese, and some fruit. God I was so hungry after this! Before work at like 11am I had a black bean burger sandwich then on my way to work at 2ish I had a cashew milk smoothie with spinach, banana, blueberries, and honey. I actually woke up at 10am. It's a start. I wake up like right before work usually.

And I tried the whole drinking enough water ugh! Had like 32 ounces white I was at work before my break I had to pee so badly after like and hour lol.

Ha as always I'm getting there,

Cilla 

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UPDATE

I started going to the gym. Today was my third day. I really plan to stick with it. I want is so badly now you don't even know. I even went by myself. It was only for half an hour, but I was proud of myself because I don't like doing things by myself. (: These past few days I've just been really happy. I finally learned my self worth and was finally able to say no to the bad things in my life and actually see through to the things I wanted to do. It's a start

I just want to keep going until I see results. You know the day I went by myself was the first time I did something other than eat and cry. I was upset the day I went to the gym and I'm glad I made myself go by myself. The drive and the half hour at the gym made me feel better. I almost feel like going now because I'm a little sad.  I'm just going to try to be more counter productive about how I handle things from now on. I really want to change.

My sleep is still bad if not worse, but my eating is better. It's better more for the fact that I don't eat sweets or over eat at least I haven't the past three days. I still need to work on actually eating meals regularly and my sleep. I also bought a lot of healthy groceries and I'm excited to start eating better. I really want to go through with this

Here's to a healthier me,

Cilla

P.S.

I weighted myself today. I weigh 216.5 lbs...it's less than the last time I wrote. (: Slowly but surely I tell you.

07/09/2015

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And this is me! I am currently around 218.5 pounds. Like I've gained 43.5 pounds since the middle of 2013 which was when I first got fired from my first job. I really let that get to me and then in 2014 when my dog died I gained some more weight too. I've been a mess and the past years have been a little more difficult that I ever imagined they would be.  I used to love myself so much and now I just don't. I feel super insecure. I'm just trying to find myself. I joined the gym. I'm trying to commit to it because when I don't have someone to go with I don't feel like going and my eating is all over the place. A lot of times I barely eat and I've been feeling really sick lately. I just want to change for the better and I want to be healthier. I know my issues run deeper than just losing a massive amount of weight, but I want this.  

Cilla