Hope again. (Part 2 )
* fate *
Pairing : Jackson!oldman!joel x reader
Tags : smut, violence, language, age gap, established relationship (sort of ) , oral , creampie,
Blood, murder, death. (Let me know if I missed anything.)
Description : see part 1 for full rundown . It's listed in my materialist! Reader is in a relationship with Joel, she is adjusting to living in Jackson. Battling her demons.
•
A month has flown by, and wow is life different. Jackson has been good to you.. You met the love of your life.. you have people that care about you.. a family really. You have a great relationship with Ellie despite Ellie's issues with Joel. She is a kid it's understandable. Dina has became like your sister, Maria same way. Tommy is like a brother you never had, always annoying Joel together. Then there is Joel.. the man who has changed everything for you. The man who in the darkest time of your life has brought you so much light and you'd like to think you do the same for him.
•
You are on patrol today. It's became a normal part of your routine. Most days it's been easy few infected here and there, no signs of the raiders who murdered your sister. That's not changed, the thing you made Joel swear to you will always remain that.
It's about 6:30 in the morning, staring at the ceiling the opposite side of the bed already empty. The smell of coffee fills the air and slight movement in the kitchen makes you smile.
Sliding on Joel's flannel you make your way to the kitchen. Sitting there glasses on the Rim of his nose reading a book.
"Mornin" you lean against the counter, bare legs exposed as the sunlight hits you illuminating them.
Joel peeks out from his book taking you all in.
"I made coffee, patrol is 8 but we can leave before."
"Okay"
He gets this way when it's time for patrol, all moody and just focused really.
You turn around to grab a cup out of the cupboard, the flannel raising slightly exposing your bare ass cheeks. That is when you feel a hand with a firm grip grabbing your ass making you gasp. Joel now has your body sandwiched between the counter and him. His arm reaching around your body between your legs.
"You start that sir we will be late for patrol and -" he cuts you off by gently rubbing your clit. You moan, feeling his bulge on your back as he kisses down your neck.
"I need you." He growls in your ear.
Footsteps approach and you two quickly stop what was quickly progressing.
"Morninngggggg maybe we should have knocked." Ellie and Dina stand in the doorway of the kitchen.
"Jesus Christ. Sorry um let me change." You blush bright red.
"Oh we can come back we are early anyway" Dina chuckles.
Joel grunts lookin around.
"You two head to town, we will meet there."
Joel comes into the bedroom as you are slipping the flannel off. His eyes on you as he closes the space between you. His hand caresses your face as you stand bare in front of him.
"Lay down." Demanding tone. Eyes dark.
"Baby we don't-"
"I said lay down."
His hand tightly gripping your chin.
Being with you woke something up in Joel, he went from not being with someone for years to wanting you every minute of the day. Even at this age and when his body didn't want to he made himself. He positions you on the edge of the bed, your legs hanging off. He gets on his knees and spreads your legs wide open.
"Joel- we need-"
He licks one big strip across your cunt instantly making your whole body shiver
He does this again a few times until he is literally devouring you . Licking and sucking all over desperately, groaning into your cunt.
You look at the time it's 7:30
"Joel- fuck baby.. we gotta -"
He stops for a second. Looking up at you. His mustache wet from your juices.
"I know. But we ain't leavin till you cum so if you worried about bein late I advise you to do what I say."
He goes right back to where he was before. This time he as he sucks on your clit he swirls his tongue around it as he slides two fingers in..
"Fuck fuck god you make me feel so good"
Joel knows your body and it's like he has since you met.
"Darlin what did I say.."
"Mhm close-" you whimper
He pumps his fingers in a few times more until you unravel under him legs shaking.
He lifts you off the bed up to him kissing you, you taste yourself on him and that turns you on again you reach down to feel how hard he is in his jeans.
7:45
"Fuck."
You and Joel clean up quickly.
You slip on your jeans, boots, tank top and one of Joel's flannels. You quickly grab your pistol, your daggers and your sister's gun.
Thankfully that stables aren't too far, Joel grabs his horse and you grab one as well.
•
8:01
This patrol is you. Dina . Ellie and Joel.
"See told ya they would be late.. and we weren't we should get a prize or somethin."
Ellie jokes.
" hey it's only a minute late! And we are never late.." You laugh.
"Okay patrol leader is obviously Joel.. I don't think I really have to tell you 3 to listen to him. Stay safe report things you see when you come back"
Tommy gives the run down.
You and Joel take the front , Ellie and Dina take the back.
Joel is pretty quiet, you just ride in peace.
"You alright today?" You ask looking over at him.
"Yeah darlin. Just wanna keep my girls safe s'all.. have you been sleeping okay.?"
"Joel you sleep with me like every night."
"I know and you talk in your sleep.."
"Did I say something?"
You stop the horse.
"Nothin it's fine. Let's keep movin"
"Apparently it's not fine because you are acting weird.. you go from "Oh We AiNt LeAvIn TiLl YoU cUm." To not saying anything and bringing up something I said unconsciously."
You still remained stopped as Joel continued. Ellie and Dina have now caught up with you.
"Everything good?" Ellie asks
"Yep just Joel being grumpy."
"Oh so nothing new then." You both laugh.
The three of you continue on the trail until you are met back up with Joel.
"Okay we are gonna leave the horses here, expect this area on foot.. Ellie you are with me.. Dina you go with her."
Joel comes over to you leaving you with a gentle kiss. "Let's get through patrol and we will talk okay."
"Okay."
•
Dina and you go to the left of the mountain.. joel and Elli go toward the abandoned neighborhood.
"Soooo how are things.. hottest couple in Jackson.. well besides me and Ellie..." Dina grins at you.
"Good, really good. It's weird. My life is completely different now. Um but sometimes like today he gets in these moods and I know it's just him, and his trauma."
"He loves you.. has he said that yet?"
"No.. but I think I may have.. he mentioned I said something in my sleep and it could be 2 things.. that.. and something else I'm not ready to talk to anyone about unless I have too.. and wait- how do you know that?
"He looks at you the same way he looks at Ellie.. different obviously.. but I see it."
"Fuck me."
"Speaking off, how is that.?" Dina smirks curiously.
"Oh my god we are not having this conversation it feels wrong."
"But you said I'm like your sister... did you tell your sister everything.."
"Good god. Ok this is all I will say.. I am a satisfied woman."
You both laugh.
•
Joel's pov
"Joel.?"
"Yeah Ellie?"
"I don't wanna pry into your relationship or whatever that is. She's good for you. I like her, Dina likes her. She's helpful and a bad ass.. and she brings light to you.."
"Yeah.. yeahh I know."
"So why are you being grumpy, you were about to jump her bones this morning and now grumpy pants."
"Ellie- let's not talk about me jumpin her bones.. I uh- well you know how I mumble in my sleep.. so does she."
"Okay and?"
"Well she's said two things that worry me.. one about the shit with her sister.. she knows the guys name.. there is history there she don't speak about it.. and I just wish she'd tell me ya know.. let me help her.. and last night she said she loved me.. in her sleep obviously .."
"Okay and you don't talk about your trauma really.. give her time.. do you love her?"
"Yeah.. yeah I do."
"Then maybe tell her old man."
Ellie punches Joel in the arm.
•
Patrol was clear on the path Dina and you took, you made it back to the horses to meet back up with Joel and Ellie.
"Okay let's head home." Joel looks at you three, comes over to you giving you a peck on the lips.
"You're safe." He looks at you.
"And so are you."
•
"Joel and his girls." Ellie says.
You couldn't help but smile ear to ear.
You all hop on your horses begin the short journey back to Jackson when you notice something.
"Joel.."
"Yeah darlin."
You point to what looks like a tent in the woods, still too far to tell.
You become Antsy ready to take off on your horse to see. Your hands shake as you grab your dagger.
"Wait.. let's not ambush.." Joel looks at you, your shaking hands. "Look at me.." he demand.
"Yes" your eyes dark. Rage filled.
"We don't know if that has anything to do with your sister.. we need to be smart here.. I have you.. Ellie.. and Dina.. that's too much to risk without knowin"
"Joel.. you gave me your fucking word." You snap at him.
"I did and I stand by it, but let's not go into a death trap darlin. I just got you in my life..."
"And I don't have my fucking sister in my life Joel.
He looks at you. Really looks at you.
"What." You look at him.
"Nothin let's get home okay.."
"Fine."
Ride back is quiet, you are pissed at him. Between not knowing what that tent was.. if it was even a tent.. and him being short with you. Joel tells Tommy about what looked to be a tent. Tommy agreed that Joel made the right call and deep down you do too, but it doesn't make it feel any better. Joel talks to Tommy for a bit longer as you are standing there letting your anger fester.
"Hey" Ellie says.
"Hi Ellie"
"He's just protecting you.. it's fucking annoying and infuriating.. but that's Joel.. that's what he does for the people he loves."
You look at her dumbfounded.
"Talk to him." She smiles giving you a hug.
"See you later."
You leave Joel and start your walk home. You needed a second to yourself. Once home you pour yourself a drink sitting on the kitchen counter the same one Joel had you pinned against earlier this morning. You sit there and ponder how much you miss your sister.. how you want to avenge her.. about the words Ellie just said.. how Joel was acting earlier.. did you say that in your sleep. Is that why he is being like this. He isn't the best with emotions hell you ain't either. Is it too much.. what if he doesn't love you..
•
"Hey babygirl."
"Hi there handsome."
Joel walks over, positioning himself between your legs, arms wrapping around you. Your face is buried into his chest. He feels like home. The smell of the hot air outside, the lingering of his cigarette. All over him.
" M'sorry For today. For bein short and I don't want it to seem like I dismissed your feelins about the tent. I'm just.. I'm just trying to keep you safe.. to keep you from things in your life that have already hurt you. Maybe that's selfish of me .. I just I-"
"You what." You mumble your face still against him.
"Look at me.." Joel trails off
You look up at his big brown eyes now covered by those glasses you love. His big hand cups your face.
"I love you." Joel stares at you nervously.
"I love you too.. now take me to our bed and make love to me."
•
Joel's lips to yours instantly. Your legs wrapped are around him as he picks you up. You start to worry he's gonna hurt himself but it's hard to stop him from kissing you the way he is. These kisses remind you alot of the first night you spent together. How hungry, how desperate to get more and more from one another. Joel takes you to the bedroom laying you down on the bed. Not missing a beat he pulls your shirt off , his lips just leaving yours for a millisecond.
"Babe-" you speak against his mouth.
"Yeah darling." His lips back to yours speaking between kisses.
"The door-"
Joel pinches your nipples between his fingers making you moan as he moves to be on top of you.
"The- fuck.. the door.. is the door locked."
His mouth moves down your jaw sucking in places that you're sure is gonna bruise.
"Joel" you moan. Obviously he doesn't care about the door. As he unbuttons your jeans pulling them down along with your panties, his hands running down your body. You pull off his teeshirt then straight to unbuttoning his jeans. He stands pulling them off , taking you in as you are laying on the bed waiting for him.
"Fuck I need you. So beautiful darlin I love you."
He opens your legs and puts himself between. His hand glides down your side to between your legs.
"No"
You whimper as he runs his finger through your wetness.
"No what darlin."
"Need you. Just you." Your hand on his face looking intro his eyes
As much as you loved foreplay with him, you needed his body on you. Him inside you. You needed your bodies as one.
That's all he needed to hear as he lifts his hips up lining up with you, with a gentle thrust he invades your whole body. You Throw your head back letting out loud moan. A moan you hope to god the house is empty. Joel thrusts in and out of you. Steady, but deep. Hard but not too hard. Loving but not too vanilla. Nose to nose as he wraps his fingers in the the root of your hair at the nape of your neck. Sex with him has always been fantastic, but this was on another level. It was him giving into love.. him giving his body to you. Him making sure you feel that, that you know that with every thrust, with every kiss down your jaw.
"Fuck sweet girl." He grunts as he thrusts in you grabbing one of your legs pinning it up towards your chest. This makes him sink deeper into you than you could ever imagine.
You go to speak but nothing comes out besides moans. You couldn't believe this could get any better but it did.
You feel your body being taken over the orgasm building but you didn't want it to end. You wanted to be here with him like this forever. But Joel.. Joel knows your body.
Joel pushing his body forward pinning that leg even more, opening you up. His cock right where it needed to be.
"I'm- god -" unable to form a sentence, your body under his control.
" yeah that's it baby give in.. show me how good I make you feel."
Joel cups your face as he slams hard.. once
"Yes baby I feel her on me."
Twice
"Look at me.. it's you and me.. you were made for me.. fate remember."
Third times a charm
"Yes thata girl.. good girl.."
Your body shakes as he talked you through your orgasm. You feel like a puddle under him.
As you are riding your wave you feel Joel twitch in you meaning he isn't far behind.
"Yes baby keep going.." you say.
Joel grunts looking at you, slamming his cock in and out.
"Come from me baby. Mark what is yours."
"Gonna fill you up darlin..fuck."
His body falling on to yours.. not moving his cock out of you. You just lay there.. naked bodies connected in every way.
"Joel... I love you.."
Your hands running through his curls. His head laying on your chest as his fingers run over that scar.
"I hate this.. I hate that someone almost took your heart.. my heart.."
He looks up at you.
"That was a very different part of my life baby.."
His eyes glimmered full of lust and love.
Joel loves being called that, as a rugged old man I guess it made him feel vulnerable in a way.
"I know darlin.. but I feel you are still haunted by that part."
You let out a deep breath
"And you aren't? But that's what makes us.. us.. my past.. your past.."
"Suppose so."
You both lay there for a moment in silence, lazy little touches. The sound of your hearts beating together. Kisses here and there.
"Can we stay here forever" you ask.
"We can.. you.. me.. maybe put a baby in ya if this old man can still even do that."
You just stare at him , realizing he actually means all of this.
"Really? You want that.?"
Still staring at him playing with his hair admiring how soft he is with you right now. Something so beautiful not a lot of people get to see. They only see the hard exterior, not the good man behind it.
"Yeah why wouldn't I.. I'm old darlin you knew this... why wouldn't I want a quiet normal.. well as normal as it can be life. Tommy did it.. "
he lets out a sigh. Realizing maybe he's been too vulnerable.
"I know that's all you have wanted baby.. when you lost Sarah.. fighting to find Tommy.. becoming Ellie's Joel. All you have ever wanted is a family. That's all I have very wanted too.."
He submerges himself even more into you his head buried in your chest. He doesn't have to say anything because you already knew.
"Fate is a funny thing" you chuckle.
You lay there silent for a few more minutes until you and Joel hear the front door close. Typically Ellie is always in the garage unless she needs something.
You both throw on clothes to go see what's going on.
•
Ellie , Dina, Jesse, and Tommy all standing in the kitchen.
Joel looks at them confused. "What's going on."
"So we got word.. that tent she seen earlier.. he instinct's were correct. Late patrol went that direction, they have one of us. Hostage type of situation. The man demanded her.. for the hostage."
They all stare at you.
"Darlin you need to tell me exactly who they are.." Joel looks at you.
You take a deep breath pulling your tank top down to expose the scar above your heart...
"You see this.. this is why... the man who killed my sister... I killed his brother.. I did things I needed to do to survive. I was somewhat in a relationship with him till things got really bad. It all stems back to the beginning.. to home in Ohio. The history goes back that far. Raised as kids together, he was my first love till he wasn't anymore. He was killing anyone and everything. He was also abusing me for years on end. One night I decided to leave.. till he hunted my sister and I down. He said I either go back and be with him forever or he's cutting my heart out. He said no one else was ever allowed to have me... that he or his brother would make sure of that."
You start sobbing.
"His brother had got word, after we fled and we have been running.. that's what happened. He has been trailing me for about a year now. When he killed her he said it was an eye for an eye.. until I stabbed him.. He ran off that's how I ended up here. I'm gonna finish the job.. no one else is dying because of me. Joel you gave me your word.. so don't you fucking dare tell me no"
Tommy looks at Joel.
"You knew?" Tommy questioned.
"Somewhat.. but not the whole story."
Joel looks at Tommy.
"So we kill him. I'm with you." Ellie comes over to stand next to you.
"Same here" Dina joins.
You don't even wait for anyone else to reply. You run out the door, your sister's gun in hand. You hear Joel yell for you but you don't stop. You can't stop. Your whole body has been taken over filled with rage, with need for revenge to finish this chapter. You run.. and run.. and run.. until till you reach the gate. You hear voices everyone frantically chasing you. Then patrol is yelling down saying there is a man outside with a knife to a woman's throat.
"Open it.. let me out."
•
Now you're back right to the spot your sister died in your arms as he stands feet away from you.
"I'm here. Now let her go." You look at the man.
The gate is still open as Joel, Ellie, Dina, Tommy, Jessie and others come behind you.
"So I see you found another family to fuck up. which one is your new man since my brother meant nothing to you for you to just slit his throat and put a bullet in his head."
"Your brother was an abusive piece of shit. And my life and how I heal is none of your business."
You take a few steps toward him. Four people come out of the woods walking behind him guns in hand. Behind you, you hear guns click.
"I'll kill her if you don't tell them to stand down.."
The man tightens the grip on the knife slightly pressing it harder against the woman's throat.
"They will.. if those fuckers do."
"So you never answered me.. who's your man.."
"I'm here right.. I'm the one you wanted.. don't worry about anyone behind me."
Your hand gripping slightly on the pistol
On your right side. Taking a few more steps till you're about two feet away staring the man into his eyes.
"Hey man just let her go.. no one needs to get hurt.." Joel chimes in.
"Oh so that's him.." the man laughs. "You always did have daddy issues.. older man.. makes sense. You're just a whore like your momma."
You seen black shoving the woman out of the way, tackling the man to the ground. The woman runs as gunshots fill the air. You land a few good punches until he has you by your throat. He is crushing your windpipe as he flips you around slamming you to the ground. He has knocked the wind out of you, your breathing is straggling and honestly you are probably concussed. He punches you 1.. 2.. that's when he grabs his knife. He proceeds to slice that scar wide open, you gush blood and your screams fill the air.
"This is for my brother you bitch."
You don't even know what's going on around you besides yelling, and the ringing of gunshots. You feel like you are gonna lose consciousness until the man is knocked off of you like a freight train. You lay there for a second to regain some type of control. You get to your feet completely unaware everything is black besides the fact you see this man lying on the ground. You pull her pistol out shooting him in the shoulder twice.. enough to get him not able move his arms.
"That's for my fucking sister."
You shoot him again in the other shoulder.
"That's for my fucking mother.. for stealing her meds when she was sick."
You get on top of him pulling out your dagger..
"No no please don't."
The man begs.
"Fate led us here.. And this motherfucker this is for me. Rot in hell with your piece of shit brother."
You stab him.. over.. and over .. and over.. and over and over.. probably 50 times at this rate..
screaming with every stab to the man's body. You were like a woman possessed. Blood covering you. You make the same slice above the heart you have but deeper.
You go to cut his heart out when you are pulled off of him.
"No no fucking let me go.. I'll fucking kill you too." you punch and kick whoever has a hold of you.
"Hey.. hey baby it's me.. it's me.."
Joel's hands on your blood covered face.
You drop to your knees and you pass out. Blood leaking from your chest as Joel hold you in his arms.
"Tommy!!" Joel screams. "I need help."
•
A day later.
You wake up confused. You recall some of what happened but not everything. You are connected to a bunch of wires and your whole body aches. You're groggy..disoriented .. you blink a few times finally able to make out what is around you. Joel is in a chair to your right.
"Hey darlin.."
"Hey baby... you kept your word." You make a small smile.
"I did.. but I almost lost you.."
"But you didn't.. I am safe... is everyone safe?"
"Yes few wounds but nothin serious. Well besides you."
"I am fine. Just some stitches and bruises I'll be okay."
Joel looks at you. Like he's almost scared.
"Why are you lookin at me like that."
"You almost bleed out in my arms.. and then.." Joel trails off tears in his eyes.
You realize that you almost bleeding out in his arms probably brought back alot of trauma from Sarah.
"But I didn't and I am here."
"Ummm.. I have to tell you something."
"What?" You look at him confused and worried.
"They found out while they were trying to save you.. that ummm.. you are pregnant."
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