"Am I making you feel sick?"
I've gone back and forth on posting this several times now. I have not been able to get in touch with my therapist yet.
I started drawing this a few days after opening up to my parents about the possibility of me having NPD
I've always had a hard time trying to get across or describe what it feels like being unable to feel empathy, but I think I've effectively gotten across what an aspect of it feels like through this
For most of my life I've been treated like a monster by those around me outside my family because I can't feel empathy, but what they don't know is that I hate this part of me, I hate being unable to properly comfort those I care about because I simply don't understand how they feel or what they're going through, and I hate not feeling anything behind the words I say always having to guess and make up what I'm feeling
It's so bad that I tend to think I'm hurting others simply by being around them, because I just can't understand them, and I hate it so much
I hate this feeling, and there's literally nothing I can do about it for now
