Thinking about you - Faye Webster
I NEED TO TELL THIS TO SOMEONE OMG,
lately, well it was around the second week of December to be exact, my close friend sent a 'heyyy Faye : smirk:' and that was so sus and sent another one later but now with a screenshot of a photo of me and someone responding to that photo with 'omg crushie'. obviously wth???? In what day and age would any of her friends like me??? She's the type to be with really cool, smart, and popular people. omg, which one of her friends like me??? I could think of two people, the first being someone taken, and the latter a really cool guy with a past relationship with a goddess. AND LIKE woah, no way cool guy would like me...
THE FOLLOWING DAY HE FOLLOWS ME ON INSTAGRAM. which in all honesty raises my suspicion of him to the highest suspect, because??? why now of all time omg. Days go by with no thought about it because who needs to think about that when you're praying animal crossing!!!
Then I and my friends went out for coffee since it was December and we hadn't hung out in a yearrrrr, we went out and chatted, and then the topic of my admirer came up, omg this was so nerve-racking because I felt like I know who it is, but I don't want to come as too excited!!!!! My other friend, who had no clue who it was started guessing people like crazyyyy, he even mentioned cool guy but said something about being gay or smth idk, and brushed him off! We hadn't hung out after that time because I kept flaking on them huhu/
The second semester started on the first day, I greeted my friend and her classmates one of my friends and cool guy's friend said 'Hey, greet him too' AND POINTED AND HIM OMG. At that point it was so obvious. ofc I consulted another friend of mine in my class and the first thing they asked me was 'Would you accept their confession' woah! crazy! idk if he actually likes me or not!!!
THEN BOOM another hang-out with friends, I actually made a point to show up since really, I've been flaking on them and I wanted to see them ofc. When me and my friend were alone together she came out to me and said, 'apperently he doesn't like you anymore, so I'm going to say who it is' AND REVEALED WHO IT WAS and the reason he didn't like me was because his grandparents didn't like my dad?? my dads well know, but like?? why would he grandparents know about me??? wth!!
thought about it long and hard, still thinking about it, like the hangout literally happened 3 weeks ago AND I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!
recently we had lunch together - my friends, and he was there to drive us!! omg he sat in front of me and like honestly idk. He also chatted to me about how our parents know each other since his dad and my dad went to the same school, like woah such a small world, but like wth!!! didn't you allegedly say your grandparents don't like my dad, BUT ALSO his father made a point to meet with my dad during his first year in my school!! woah.... okayyyy....
still thinking about it :/// honestly I should give background, I first saw cool guy during our department acquaintance party, he sat with my friend since they were close and honesty to God my first thoughts about him were "Woah he's so cool, I wonder if I could make him like me" Like I was crazyyyy my gosh and he's been at the back of my mind since then, I don't mind him, I think I mind myself more, Hes really cool and really normal, a good student, christ-loving and a decent person. which!!! like I'm not any of those wth! at least I know I'm pretty but with a rotten personality and crazy interest... sometimes I wish I was normal so that maybe I would be right for him...
butttt, I should honestly let go, its been like weeks, and nothing really has happened, but I don't think I can stop thinking about it lol, it would be at the back of my mind as a 'what if' moment, even as a friend I think I would be content haha!!!
thats like, is the reason I made this blog here, its nice to write and reflect on shit.
