29th March 2019. I learned why my smile is so powerful and important. I haven't been smiling as much. Because I read somewhere it's not as attractive to girls when a guy smiles so much. Second reason. I'll be happy when I get this money. Its weird. I had 5 jobs somehow no money, and not a bit happy. Went through this long drought of non consistent dating, lots of ghosts. I can think rationally and reasonably as possible to understand where did I go wrong with this girl, or with handling the money. The biggest thing I was doing the right thing, but I didn't feel happy. I didn't feel anything at all. It was like this long lasting question of why am I here. Am I really enjoying myself. Do I really like myself? What am I going to do next? The day before I was at a track meet for myself and someone else. It was first time in a long time I felt really proud and amazed to support someone with such high energy. To watch them, not only excel but learn as well, it was a moment to live for. I barely checked my phone the whole time while I was there. My problems still existed, but I felt emotionally high. When I got home, lol my brakes slowly stop working. Then more things to bring me emotionally down haha. I was thinking yo I invested all these money a little more than $5,000 for all my certifications combined, and I can't even afford a jack lift for my car. But you know what for every coal there was a diamond. I got what I needed and more. I'm very fortunate to have the support system that I do from my parents and friends. They all helped me out today, and always have even when I felt like I was alone on this journey. The money was so worth the investment because I was able to experience that marvelous moment at the track meet. My job is to help people be their best to help them fill in the gaps to help them grow in life. I been scared to be happy while being broke, but the smile really suits me. . . #vinyasa #vinyasayoga #coreworkout #howtocrow #longyogapost #yoga #yogaflow #fitness #calisthenics (at Focus Fit Pearl) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvn0mV-lzt6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12ffn9mtqhmzm