First Post!!! Well, since I'm new to the glitter community I thought I may as well start out with my story:
Started out with me having a one night stand with this guy I REALLLY liked. We had been talking for a while, and finally decided to meet up before he had to go back to his home state since summer was ending. Well, you can obviously expect what happened 👌👈. After he left, once I had found someone else and moved on, he decided to message me and tell me he had a girlfriend at the time we fucked and fed me a bunch of bullshit about him caring about me and how he didn't know what to do, etc. Well, me being me, I found his girlfriend online and let her know. She asked what happened, and then told me I should get checked because they both were being treated for chlamydia and herpes (points to her for being responsible and TELLING ME!)
Honestly, it was instant panic. INSTANT PANIC. I texted my significant other while crying and panicking and told him what I found out. I told myself my friends would think I was disgusting and that they would leave me, I told myself my significant other would leave me, I was just a mess. I prayed, and got so upset that I considered suicide, and ended up crying myself to sleep that night. Thankfully, the next morning my significant other called me up and told me everything was gonna be ok, that we would get checked together and that he still loved me regardless (WOW WAS I FUCKING LUCKY.) That day we got checked, and were told the results would come back in about two days or more. Well, I was still so anxious that I had to know more before I could get my results.
That's when I started researching herpes. I knew it was permanent, but didn't really know what it was or what it did. In my head, I assumed it was deadly and would ruin my life forever. Nah, not the results I found. I was so shocked when I discovered the statistics on it, saw how common it is, and learned it's not as serious as I assumed. If anything, I was relieved. Then of course, I looked to Tumblr. And WOW, was that fucking relieving!!!! The glitter community was so positive and supportive that a lot of my fears washed away. Before I even got my results I just accepted that I had herpes (whatever type it may be) and fully wanted to end the stigma behind it. I had a whole new view of it!!! Now, fast forward to results day.
(Which were today but whatever) I was literally taking a piss as I received the call to hear "You have HSV-1." (Not exactly along those lines, I'm paraphrasing here.) Not gonna lie, I was a bit sad at first but I instantly reminded myself of everything I had learned. I called up my best friends and they didn't judge, in fact they told me they were proud I was responsible and got myself checked!! My boyfriend was supportive, told me that he loved me and that he'd be here for me and that hey, at least we have it together. Honestly, I'm terrified of my first outbreak, but I'm happy that I know of what's going on. I'm happy I learned something new and that now I can help others know and help end the stigma. Of course I'm nervous, but hey, this is a new chapter of my life!!! I'm glad I have my friends, my significant other, and the herpes community!!!! I'm so thankful!!!!