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Finding My Niche #Prekill

Finding My Niche #Prekill

I knew it would be different. It felt like I was wasting time, but I was proactive in thinking about an angle that really fit me.

I’m frustrated that it took so long. In the same breathe, I learned the patience to not care how long it took.

There were massive amounts that I had to unlearn in order to move forward. It’s funny how clarity becomes a close friend once your daily work doesn’t solely…

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How to Kiss a YouTuber: Dylan O’Brien - Part 2

Pairing:  Dylan O'Brien X (Gender Neutral) Reader

Request: [Asked by Anonymous] Hey, I was wondering if how to kiss a youtuber: Dylan o'brien was going to be a full fix or if it is just a oneshot, If it was only a one shot could you please do a part 2? Thanks  

Warning: OBVio–…Actually…no.

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Link to Part 1 - How to Kiss a YouTuber: Dylan O'Brien

“We are here at the London premiere and also the first premiere of ‘Until the End’ staring Dylan O'Brien and Y/N Y/L/N. We will be seeing them shortly” Introduced the main interviewer who stood in the centre of the red carpet surrounded by fans of You and Dylan. “But first we will have quick chat with some of the fans” The host said before running to the side of the fence were hundreds of people filled the area. The host was chatting with the fans, trying to keep them entertained and keep the excitement alive whilst the fans waited for the celebrities.   As you sat in your hotel room and enjoyed watching the host entertain the awaiting fans on the expensive hotel room TV, your assistant ran in to your hotel room causing you to jump. When you heard laughing you realised that your best friend had seen that they had made you jump. You had hired your best friend as your assistant so that they can be with you at premiers and cons.   “Y/N, you need to start getting ready now” your assistant told you, placing their clipboard on the bed so they could have both hands free. “Did you decide what you wanted to wear?” You nod as you eat one of the hotel chocolates. “Right well, do you want to start getting ready and I’ll get the make up team” your assistant “asked”.   Once you were completely done up and ready you get into the limo with your best friend, you started to get nervous. It wasn’t like the was your first time at a premiere but you still get nervous although you didn’t really have time to think about your nervousness and anxiety when you arrived after a two minute drive. An odd thing premieres make you do, drive from your hotel to the red carpet which you are just around the corner from eachother.   As you get out of the car you can hear the host mention to the live broadcast and to the fans which were surrounding the red carpet, that you had just arrived.   You could hear the fans going crazy, screaming your name, there were film posters of you and Dylan all over the walls and fences. Your best friend starts to lead you to the photographers. As you posed for the camera’s, you couldn’t help your nerves. Your outfit was supposed to look connected to your other half’s outfit but not completely matching to make it obvious that you were dating.   You had been dating Dylan for just over six months now, since the kissing scene for the film ‘Until the End’, in fact that night you went on your first date… to McDonald’s since you had both just got off work and were both exhausted. A week  later though Dylan took you out on a “proper” date.   Your relationship is still a secret but you try and be together as much as possible. Using the film press tour as an excuse to be seen together so much.   You walked down the red carpet with your best friend, laughing at the poses your assistant was shouting out for you to do as the magazines and paparazzi took photos.   When you reached the interview section of the premiere, the interviews we all really chatty but some really wanted to know about your dating life.   Your assistant started to direct you in the direction of one of the last interviewers, that’s when you noticed Dylan chatting with them. “The interview is with BBC, interviewed by Jim Chapman, they want to talk with you and Dyl together” your best friend informed you as you made your way over.   You hadn’t seen Dylan all night, the last time you saw him was when he left your hotel room moments before your best friend barged in, so you hadn’t seen him in his suit. It took you a moment to gather your thoughts before stepping up to Dyl and Jim. “Hey” you said happily.   As soon as Dylan saw you you could see him stop for a moment making you blush.   The interview only took a few minutes and then you both carried on down the red carpet. Before you knew it you were sat down in the theater, your boyfriend sat on the right if you and your best friend sat on the left of you, as the director introduces the film.   The film plays for a while before Dylan starts to play with your fingers that were resting on the arm rest. Eventually causing them to intertwine.   “You look so hot, baby” Dylan whispers to you, leaning over the arm rest to you in the dark room.   “You don’t look so bad yourself” you chuckle before lifting your intertwined hand and kissing his knuckle before going back to watching the film.   Thirty minutes pass into the film and Dylan speaks up again.   “Babe?” He whispers. It takes you a while to realise he is talking.   “Yeah?” You whisper back leaning over the arm rest to be able to hear him. He leans over to bringing you into a kiss, just as your first kiss shows up on screen. The kiss breaks just in time for you to see the kiss on the screen, you look back at Dylan to bring him into another kiss, his lips feeling like home.   “I love you” you whisper to him as your forehead rests against his. “I love you too”

[jordaaanhill]

Hello all, it brings me a ton of pride and joy to finally begin sharing my first written scripture, How To Kill Yourself #HTKY: is a recollection of hard lessons and philosophy that I hope brings value to those that seek this form of knowledge. More than just written this is an interactive experience that you can chose to involve yourself in as much or as little as you desire. How to Kill Yourself excerpt (pre-order now available) "Never allow your adversary to paint you as a victim. No matter the circumstance, being a victim assumes that someone (other than God) has some power over you, your life, or your ability to do more. Please I beg you to refrain, the collateral damage is overwhelming when you identify as a victim. You assume that some mythical creature we call justice, is going to come swoop in out of nowhere to help you. I’m telling you, it’s not. The sooner you realize that the success game is completely internal the quicker you can kill your old beliefs and reconstruct with better ideas, concepts, materials, etc. Also, don’t be typecast based on certain traits you may have. Realize that we are dynamic spiritual beings, not here to be less than extraordinary as we align with our creator's vision. Each man is just that, a man. We peak where we fall into a thought pattern that isn’t our own. Grow your ability to trust yourself, your judgement, your talent, your journey in this thing called life."

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Mental Heavyweight #Prekill

I say this a lot so I guess I should explain

A man’s mental strength is the real gold. I guess you never hear it spoken of as the deciding factor, but that’s it.

The knowledge of becoming is the same knowledge that knowing is made up of. I feel like I’ve always known, not from a narcissist’s POV. More from an understanding that I cannot live a life leading to nowhere, if I don’t reach my…

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There Will Be Fights #Prekill

There Will Be Fights #Prekill

This notion that no friction will exist while you go for it.

I laugh during a storm, not because I enjoy the storm, but because I know that it is indeed temporary and growing more so with each passing moment. If pain is a deterrent for you, these lessons, this philosophy, my organization might not be for you. I feel that within discomfort and hardship we can truly learn the most about ourselves.…

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Strategy #Prekill

Robert Greene’s 33 Strategies of War still holds a special place in my heart.

Those long hours spent reading, contemplating, writing, visualizing that part of my life started around that book.

I was so dedicated to finding a path back then, so interested in possibility that circumstances where an afterthought. Focus was greater than circumstance, little did I know, this allowed me to brave the…

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Life #Prekill

“Family’s a blessing, if it’s anything. I learned that lesson. Taking it that way. Went through a lot of suggestions and stressin. Whenever I decide to take a path whenever there’s ones carved along the way. I understood, I dug underground tunneling like Harriet Tubman. Damn man. I didn’t realize that it could be much more than I planned. Defined by the journey itself the whole time. Defined by…

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Believe Series pt 2 #Prekill

Believe Series pt 2 #Prekill

The Believe Series is that of commitment.

In my late 20s I decided to move from Houston. The failed business that I was trying to hold together was slipping through my grasp like sand on the beaches I’d later vacation on. The mental anguish of knowing your failure exists and the weight of accepting such a thing. The times when it’s just you in your truth, no barriers, clear headed. The walk is…

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