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[heydeyllh]

Lord, You’ve blessed me so much! Thank You!

For the past two years of my life, You proved to me that there is nothing You can’t do. And You really do answer prayers!

Thank you, Lord for blessing me a friend, a best friend, a brother, a prayer partner, a lover, and a person to keep forever. Thank You for using Him to make me feel all the love that You are giving. I couldn’t ask for more because my Family, my Love, You, and my Ministry is more than enough for me to survive this temporary world You have provided. I am so loved.

To my guy, my best friend, my partner, my forever Love..

Thank you so much for being a blessing to my life. For being the best person to talk to when I’m struggling. For being my prayer partner in trials and blessings. Thank you. So much. You’ve taught me how to accept my flaws, my insecurities, my mistakes, and even forgive people who betrayed me, who’ve hurt me, and still hurting me.

Thank you for being the best supporter and cheerleader, especially when I’m so down and everything is not doing good. You’ve been there to comfort me when I lost Lolo and Inay; when I had problems at home; when the only man I trust in my whole life betrayed me; when I’m about to give up my ministry; when I got lost because I am pursuing my plans that listening on what God want for me instead; when I almost gave up life. You’ve been there, always there.

Thank you for making me realize things and understand situations that I can’t handle. For always helping me decide bc I’m bad at it. For making things I can’t, especially cooking! Sorry :P

Thank you for being my bestest friend! For keeping secrets that should be kept. For understanding everything I am saying out of my emotions. For being so patient with my bad-ass attitude!

Thank you, and always know that I love you so much! And I’ll never get tired of telling you this. Never. I’m praying for more years, more laughter and tears, trials and blessings, and more more more love and moments to cherish!

You’re my blessing.

To God be the Glory!

[heydeyllh]

Huhu akala ko last na kita na naten huhuhu

-Macky, 05.30.17 | 7:59 PM

Muntik na ako umiyak sa chat nya. Kasi sobrang lakas ng ulan sa Bacoor. Tapos pauwi sya sakanila. (Di naman naulan dito samin nung umalis sya). Tumawag si Mama sakin mga 20-25mins na akong nakauwi at si Macky otw na sa bahay nila, wag ko na daw sya muna pauwiin kasi sobrang lakas ng ulan at kakagaling lang sa lagnat. Pero hindi ko sya matawagan para pabalikin dito sa bahay. Nagstart na ako magworry. Napapraning na ako, ang dami ko nang messages na sinend sakanya. Tapos biglang nagmessage sya sakin ng ganito.. “Loves”, “Huhu akala ko last na kita na naten huhuhu” lalo akong napraning at nagworry. Anong nangyayari. Naiiyak na ako, tinatawagan ko sya pero waang sumasagot. Ang tagal nya nagreply sa messages ko. Sabi ko sa Nanay ko aalis ako dahil naaksidente yata sya. Kahit malakas ulan, aalis ako. Naiiyak na ako. At ayun, nagreply na sya. Muntik nang bumaliktad yung jeep na sinasakyan namin kanina pauwi galing District. Siguro dahil sa lakas ng ulan at dulas ng daan. Umiyak na talaga ako. Paulit ulit akong nagsasalita “Anong nangyari?” “Anong nangyari na kaya?” Huhu, sa message nya nawindang ako lalo na akala nya last na kita na namin. Napaiyak talaga ako. Lalo na’t anniversary na namin sa isang araw. Jusko, di ko kakayanin talaga!

Pero salamat sa Panginoon dahil di Niya pinabayaan ang irog ko. Pinakaba Niya ako ng malala, naiyak ako sa takot talaga. Pero mabuti parin Sya sa patuloy na pagpatnubay sa anumang oras. Bagamat masakit daw likod nya dahil sa biglang pagpreno, Salamat Panginoon sa kaligtasan!

Hay, para sayo naman, Mahal ko. Mag-ingat! Pektusan mo si Manong Drayber kung masyadong mabilis. Mahal mo pa buhay mo at naghihintay pa ako sayo. Jusko, magaanniversary pa tayo. Pero sa kabila ng lahat, salamat sa 5 araw na pagiging shopping buddy, foodtrip buddy, chef, assistant, at lahat lahat na, pasyente!!! Hehe, mahal na mahal kita! 😘💋 Magpagaling ka pa! 💓

[heydeyllh]

GUSTONG GUSTO KITANG IPAGDAMOT, PERO HINDI PWEDE. Realtalk. Nakakairita na makita kang clingy sa iba, hug dito, hug doon.. pero yun yung nakasanayan mo. Naiirita din ako sa mga babaeng clingy sayo. Oo, nakasanayan kasi. Pero sana naiintindihan nila na girlfriend mo ako, at posibleng hindi maganda tingnan para sakin. At please, respeto lang. Naiinis ako sa mga galaw mong parang walang ako sa paligid mo. Dahil yan yung nakasanayan mo, ayokong baguhin ka dahil hindi ko alam kung anong dapat para sayo pero nasasaktan ako. Nasasaktan ako sa twing pinapaalala mo sakin na matagal mo na silang kasama at ang ganung bagay ay wala nang malisya pero teka.. Matagal mo na silang kasama, nauna sila at ako ay kailan lang. Hindi ko mabubura kung anong nakasanayan mo pero please hinay hinay lang. Masakit maisip, makita at marinig sakanila na binago ka ng relasyong meron tayo. Na unti unti nang nawawala sayo ang mga nakasanayan mo dahil lang sa kakaisip ko ng ako. Kakaisip na nasasaktan ako. Kakaisip na nahihirapan ako. Kakaisip na paano naman ako. Pero mali, oo mali ako. Gustong gusto kitang ipagdamot sa nakasanayan mo pero talo ako. Talo ako sa ideya na sila nalang ang kaibigan mo at makasarili ako. Kung ipagdadamot kita, talo ako. Dahil nagpabalot ako sa takot at lungkot. Takot na maging masaya ka sakanila at lungkot na makitang mas masaya ka kasama sila. Na baka paggising ko sa sunod na umaga, wala ka na dahil napagtanto mo sa mas masaya na sila ang kasama. Oo, takot na takot ako. Sa bawat duda, tanong, at di maipaliwanag na sitwasyon, takot na takot ako. Dahil, baka may maisagot ako na di mo gusto at lumakad ka nalang palayo. Palayo sa akin na dala sayo ay bigat ng damdamin, sakit sa ulo at nakakasakal na pamamaraan ko para tumagal tayo. Bitbit ang lungkot na pasan mo, unti unting mapapawi ng nakasanayan mo ang lungkot na ito. Sasalubungin ka nila ng mga bagay na gustong gusto mo at maaalala mo na mas masaya jan kesa dito. Sa takot kong mangyari lahat ng to, kinukulong kita dito. Dito sa puso na naghahanap ng kalinga at pang-unawa. Sa pusong paulit ulit dinudurog ng sitwasyon at problemang walang solusyon. Nakakapagod. Nakakapagod na minsan gusto ko nang isuko ka at kalimutan na tayo pa. Nakakapagod. Gusto kitang ipagdamot dahil dun ako masaya, ang maramdaman na akin ka. Pero gusto din kitang maging malaya dahil dun ka masaya. Dun ka masaya kung saan may mga nakakasalamuha kang iba. Kung saan nagiging mas malakas ka, mas nasisiyahan ka. Gustong gustong gusto kong ipagdamot ka, pero hindi pwede. Hindi pwede dahil hindi ako makasarili. Gusto ko laging sabihin sayo to, pero alam king pag-aawayan at pag-aawayan lang to. Pero sana, makaramdam sila. May girlfriend ka na at hindi na pwede ang nakasanayan na clingy kayo sa isa't isa. Naka may nasasakyan pala.

[heydeyllh]

오늘 밤 한국 음식 🍴 🇰🇷

Yes, treat my squad a Korean Foodtrip last night. Glad that they are happy and full with these dishes we ordered. Btw, let me give you an idea how much I spent with this Korean Foodtrip..

My Sister ordered Chicken w/ Mushroom Sauce (P100) and Kani Salad (P70). Her boyfriend ordered Pepper Beef w/ Rice (P100). My boyfriend had Soy Chicken w/ rice (P100), Spicy Rice Noodle (P100) and Kimchie (P30). And I had Korean Ramen (P100). We’re not aware that every dish with rice includes lemonade, that’s why we ordered soda (P25). We also bought Korean ice creams for dessert, Red bean Samanco (P50), Chocolate Samanco (P50) and Papico (P30). And since Mom is not with us, I ordered chapche for take out (P160). It’s stored in a big microwaveable plasticware. It’s all worth it!!!!

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Visit Jelay’s at Edades St. (near Molino Eco Park) Molino V, Bacoor, Cavite. They are open from 9am-9pm! No Soju, all meals are affordable, from P50-P150 only!!!

#foodtrip #squad #koreannight #htssdiaries (at Jelay’s)

[heydeyllh]

Great place + Cravings + Good Music + You 💓 I love this night. I always love to be with you, or around you. I always love the food we shared together. I aways love the place we visit together. And I always love making you happy. In two days we're turning two. And I can't wait to be with you and enjoy the day and just sleep and eat. I'm so happy and blessed to have you. In three days that I took care of you bc you're sick af, feel na feel ko. Lol. I just love feeding you and preparing everything for you, remind you to get your meds and rest. You made me happy and satisfied and made me believe again that I can be someone into other people's life. Thank you for letting me do everything I could for you. Hehe, such a privilege, my Love. I pray for you to be well so soon. I could still take care of you, but you know, Papa needs you. Praying for strength to be upon us and in this relationship. I love you so much, love! ❤ Thank you for the nights spent together. Yey! Bawing bawi na! Para sa lahat, here's my boyf with his fan! Hehe, Im so proud of my multi-talented boyfriend. Never fails to make me laugh. My happy pill! To God be the Glory! 😇

[heydeyllh]

HITOSIS, YANO F.

CAMPER OF THE YEAR (2017)

4-TIME FRIENDLIEST CAMPER OF THE YEAR

I’m so proud of you, Man! I am so proud that you finally made it! After years of joining the camp and getting “The Friendliest Camper” award all the time, now it’s your perf time to be called, “Camper of the Year”. And I believe that it’s really meant for you.

I always nag you because you still commit your extra time for church stuff instead of giving yourself rest. Bc you’ve been sleepless for the past weeks and now, you committed to join the camp. (Not a negative thing, just tryin’ to give him rest bc I’m afraid that he’ll the next one to attend to due to over-working or lack of sleep).

But the Lord is so generous. He’s so generous for giving you enough strength to face the challenges. To take care of everything. He gave you so much time and wisdom. And he sees the goodness in your heart and eagerness to be part of His squad, His chosen ones, His strongest soldiers. You have proven Him that He’s your number one. He, and His works is your priority. And it makes me even more proud of you.

I know that t’was God who placed you to be there. T’was Him who worked for you. T’was His arms, legs, and strength who worked with you and helped you. And we can now say, “It’s all worth it.”

IT’S ALL WORTH IT!!! YES! IT IS.

We’ve been struggling with how you manage your time from different stuff. Family, Church, Me (Always counting myself in, forgive me), Friends. You don’t have proper sleep, you don’t eat on-time, you no longer exercise. You don’t spend your “ME TIME”. Because you want to attend everything. And I’m a bit against that. Bc of your health, of course.

And I suddenly realized that t’was all worth it. Sleepless nights, exhausting days, no communication for couple of days.. it was worth it. Because you bring home the bacon. Those no communication days, no time to spend with family and help Papa, no enough rest, and all your sacrifices for this camp. It was all worth it!

And I must say that you made the right choice. As you always do. And I’ll never get tired telling you how proud I am! I missed you so much! I’m so happy for you! I love you! God bless you more! And I’m always with you, praying for your plans and walks with the Lord in the future.

To God be the Glory!

P.S.: Thank you for taking care of me after your camp. I really appreciate it, not so obvious but I really do!

[heydeyllh]

📹 @d_un1verse ❤ | #instashot #DYvids #DYtravels

[heydeyllh]

Hi LoveyDovey ❤ Na-expectation vs reality mo ko sa pagtulog mo ah. Ha ha ha. Akala ko ako yung makakatulog, nyawrk! Pero it's oki, you still look pretty (wtf?!) while sleeping. I love your innocence on this photo. I love how random and candid this post is. I love seeing the simpliest form of YOU. Just my Macky who say nothing, but still my heart is melting seeing you that way. I am seeing the best guy in the world that God will allow to have a happily ever after with me. The guy whom I will spend the rest of my days. Even he's the most farter in the world, I would still love and accept all the flaws that he has. I would still make hmmmm, nahhh, I don't know anything. Lol. I would still love to spend home dates with him, and make him feel that I am the most blessed gal in the universe cus I have him. Behind the flaws, the imperfections, repetition of flaws, the non-stop 'sorry'/s.. I believe that every love has a room for it. And I'd still love you the same, never less. Never. I deserve a man who can feed me, took care of me, travel with me, join my power-tripping moods, laugh and sleep with me. Not a man who will just wait for me to do something for the relationship to work. I am kooking for a partner that is actually built in you. It's you, and will always be you. I love you my Love! 😘😘😘