Aug 27, 2025
Sudden painful yearning for 🧮
I miss him so much
seen from Germany
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Sudden painful yearning for 🧮
I miss him so much
I love continuing to fuck up everything because I'm a selfish piece of shit!
He doesn't love me. He loves an idealized version of me. As everyone before him ever has. 🌩️ is the only one who's seen every terrible dark part of me, and still chooses to keep me. She's the only thing that's consistent. The only thing that's forever. I either need to give up, or get better at pretending.
Yeah I should just crawl back to 🌩️. That's really all I'm good for. Her showing up was probably good for me, idk. Maybe I need to be humbled.
I miss 🧮. I miss 🍵. I'll never see them again and have no hope of ever seeing them again. It hurts.
No one is ever going to genuinely understand me enough to feel fulfilling or see me for who I truly am and that's such a terrifying feeling.
man I gotta stop just coming here to vent
sucks that I just wanna feel numb to it
sucks I gotta figure out how to hold back 🦗 now
who knows
maybe this is the end