Oct 24, 2015
Still feeling very shaky, not hungry and nauseous. Spent only €6 last night and have still got a hangover, maybe due to the whiskey and vodka i got from someone. Everything still feels unreal, and I still have to fake being fine, which is awful tbh. And I miss her so much, like, at least I slept, but it was full of dreams which made me cry when they were over. "I thought I'd died and gone to heaven" (Bryan Adams) but apparently it was just another dream. (And I think I've lost weight, my pants don't seem to fit well for some reason)
