My mom keeps implying that my mental illness is just "a normal part of who I am that I need to accept" and it's steressing me out so bad fuck she also said that before when she was a kid there was no internet and when you felt shitty uou just got over it and it was notmal but that I'm just eeading too many articles planting ideas in my head and changing who I am and I'm so scared cause she's probably right and I'm provabym making this all up for attention or something she wants to take away my phone and Internet and everything so that I can "be with my own thoughts" cause also apparently my meds are just a false coping mechanism I use to avoid accepting who I really am and I'm so stressed cause she's probably right but that also means that who I am is an ugly stupid girl who can't focus or remember anything and who will always be depressing and tired and hear voices sometimes and plan to kill herself and if that's who I am then I don't want to be anymore I just want to die so I probably maybe should do that I just need to find a reliable way