#hydesan.

[sonoman]

haidoneko replied to your post “Happy birthday, Sono-san!”

No need for nerves! I'm hardly a Yoshiki-sama, and you survived being onstage with him! ww

Even so, I am certain I fainted on the inside. Several times. It was definitely a huge moment. And a challenge to not pass out.

[sonoman]

Happy birthday, Sono-san!

Thank you so much, Hydesan.The kouhai-nerves are present!

[sonoman]

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∯ You are literally the definition of my other half. I’ve been through heaven and hell with you, and although we have faced many obstacles, we’re still just humans, but compared to others, we’re just half of a human. It’s both a curse and a blessing to be this tied since birth, but in my eyes, it’s something I’d never change. Yes, I may want to strangle you half of the time, but it is all due to how much we clash due to our roots, and you’re my family. I hope you’re aware that there’s nobody else that literally can get into my head the way you do. And with this link tied between us, I refuse to ever go anywhere.

∯ You, together with mother, are definitely one of the strongest individuals I will always look up to. You have been my best friend ever since I was born. At one point when I was a child, I thought you were the only girl that I would be able to tolerate and not get any germs from, considering you’re my family. You taught me how to play my very first instrument, and you had and have, so much patience, despite just being a few years older than I. I’m eternally grateful to you, and for everything you have done and still do for me. I know it isn’t easy, but you’re the only person that knows all of my secrets and everything that I am, in and out. When I have been feeling hopeless, you always picked me back up and got my head back in the game. Thank you, for loving me even in the darkest of times, and not leaving my side.

∯  Now, it is not often I see you, considering you were always much older than I. Six years is quite a few years, yet you have always been there for me and supported me to your best ability. You’re the oldest of us four, and I always admired how well your life has been shaped. A typical dream scenario, with a kind and sweet wife and your children. My nieces and nephews. A good, successful job, and your family values always coming first. You’re very similar to our father, that’s for sure. The one that resembles him the most and has taken after him the best. I am so envious of you for that, and am so proud to know you’re my family.

∯ You’re my role model. I may have many artists I look up to, such as Yoshiki-san, but nobody is ever going to beat you in this contest. Not only did you give birth to me, but I have never seen a man so strong and motivated when it comes to keeping his family safe and still keeping old fashioned traditions. I have taken such traditions with me into the modern time, in the present, and I know it’s both good and bad. You taught me how important it is to stay true to your culture and traditions, and I am never going to stray from any of that. At the same time, I know not everybody is going to accept my behavior pattern and my firm decisions, choices, and what I want. We’re both selfish, and I’d like to think I got it from you - but I also know you’re stronger than I, and I aspire to be just like you someday. Despite being so traditional and strict, you jammed with me to Heavy Metal and Jazz from the very first day I learned about music as a small infant.  Thank you, for everything, and the support you always have given me when it comes to my passion for music. 

∯ And then there is you. The birth and beginning of everything. The only soul in this world that I value so highly, I’d literally do anything for her. You are the other half that gave birth to me, and you always made sure I had everything I needed. Whether it was attention, food, clothes, art classes, music, helping me find a part time job just so I could get my very first bass I was so impatient and determined to get my hands on. All of your support and love, I have stored within me and locked it away just to keep it all to myself. This is a part of me you blessed me with, and I do not want anybody else to see this one part of me you have shaped me into. It’s far too personal, and it’s too vulnerable for other humans to get any access to. Just you. But you’re not a human to me - you’re the Mother of this World in my eyes. My world. I thank you from the bottom of my heart, everyday, for shaping me into the person I am today.