being a neurodivergent artist with aphantasia/hypophantasia it’s ALWAYS been difficult for me to come up with ideas to draw and even harder putting them down on paper, putting so much pressure onto myself to make it look nice and presentable in case i want to put it on the internet, but lately i’ve come to realize just how toxic that is for me
rather than prioritizing “nice” drawings, i've started prioritizing making “crappy” ones that focus more on the idea being depicted rather than looking presentable, as a result, i’ve been putting more ideas on paper and keeping less of them inside my head, sure, imo they might not be decent enough to show to everyone else, but it’s way better than saying i never drew it at all
instead of using my private sketchbook as a means of simply getting better at drawing, i’ve also started using it as a visual journal for my ideas, journals are meant to get your thoughts down and it isn’t supposed to look “presentable”
i mean, that’s what a sketchbook is for afterall right? i just can’t believe it took me this long to figure out that’s what works best for me
TL:DR - drawing to get better at drawing ❌ drawing to journal my thoughts even if it looks bad ✅